Song~ Human - Rag'n Bone Man ⚠️TW Violence⚠️



TW⚠️ Nightmare- ⚠️ "Get in the ring!" Mrs Lucia yells at me.

This all started because I haven't ate in a week and a half. I'm starting to hallucinate now and I just want food.

I was really hungry, so I snuck out my room and tried to steal from the kitchen.

Key word- tried.

A guard found me and dragged me to the head boards office where all the board members were.

They all took turns beating the shit out of me while I screamed and pleaded for them to stop.

They didn't.

They had already started training us how to kill and fight, but there was no way I could fight the board members.

I would loose and probably end up dead with bullet in my skull.

When they were done beating me, Mrs. Lucia dragged me to the training room where to very tall men were fighting in the ring.

I could do nothing but let her drag me like a rag doll.

Hearing the doors open, the turned to us. Upon seeing me, large grins spread across their faces. I shrunk back in Mrs. Lucia's hold.

I may be young, but I'm not stupid. Those men are bad. All the adults here are bad.

I'm not safe.

I'm trapped.

Mrs. Lucia drags me to the ring. "Get in the ring!" She screams at me. When i didn't move she picked me up and threw me in.

I winced at the impact but quickly got up alert that two men were here with me.

"Fight" is all Lucia said before walking over to a couch where the rest of the board members were sitting, watching, smirking, and laughing.

Bastards.

In my moment of distraction, one man landed a sweep to my feet effectively knocking me on my booty.

I get back up and kick him in his non-existent jewels. He was definitely not expecting that.

I forgot there were two men In the ring. The second man comes up behind me, wrapping his arm around my neck in a swift motion. The first guy that I kicked gets up and he looks very angry.

I squirm in the second guys grip but he doesn't let go. My vision begins to blur and tears well in my eyes as my oxygen supply is being cut off.

The first guy begins to punch and continuously kick me. The pain is too much. It's all too much.

The pain becomes unbearable and me not being able to breathe isn't helping.

My ribs burn, I can feel blood dripping down my head. There is no oxygen reaching my lungs and if this guy did put me down, I wouldn't be able to even hold myself up.

Before I loose consciousness, I hear the second man speak as the first one pulls down my pink joggers.

They lay me on the ground and I'm still so disoriented to know what they are doing. The second guy pins my hands above my head.

What are they doing?!

The first guy that I had kicked, pulls down my purple undergarments.

No, no, not again.

"It's my turn sweetheart, you will enjoy it. Don't worry" he whispers in my ear before I fall into a dark abyss.

And then I was motionless.

I could not save myself.

I was weak.

I am weak.

I let it happen.

I should have fought harder.

But I was only eight? Was it really my fault?

Of course it was.

It is always my fault.

~End of Nightmare-



I wake up gasping for air. Then I immediately have the urge to throw up.

I jump out of bed barely making it to the toilet before I throw up everything in my stomach.

Just when I think I'm done, I remember what they did to me when I passed out and so I continue to heave into the toilet.

This has been going on every night I fell asleep since I told Casandra about the mission. This is why I needed her, incase their faces make me have the need to hunch over a toilet.

I can't stop throwing up, so I forcefully get up and rinse my mouth out and head downstairs resisting the urge to try and get anything out of my stomach. I quickly grab a glass of water and chug the whole thing.

Bad idea because the second I finish it I gag and rush to the kitchen trash can throwing up even more.

Is there anything left in my stomach?

I don't know how long I stand over the trash can, just heaving but before I know it, someone's panicked voice comes from behind me and rushed footsteps.

Sebastian.

"Shit Diovanna!" He whisper shouts panicked.

Why is he always taking care of me? Lucian told me he brought me to my room when I was drunk and now he finds me, vulnerable, and after a nightmare.

Oh well, I continue to be hunched over the trash can as he comes behind me holding my hair up and rubbing my back.

"Are you sick?" He asks, concerned laced in his voice.

I shake my head. He seems to nod waiting for me to finish tossing my cookies and non-existent cookies.

When I think I'm done, I head over to the sink and rinse my mouth. When I'm done, I lean my head on the counter.

"Diovanna, what happened?" Sebastian asks softly.

'Nightmare' I sign, my head never leaving the counter.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He questions taking a cautious step towards me. Like if he moves too fast I'll bolt. I might.

After nightmares like that, men tend to be more scary, they make me fearful and more on edge. And Sebastian being a man, and standing next to me, puts me on edge.

I shake my head to his question.

"Okay, why don't you try and sleep?" He says, trying to do anything to make me feel better. It won't work but thanks for trying.

I shake my head again.

"Alright, let's go sit on the couch. We can watch a show, or a movie" he tells me.

I nod, a movie doesn't sound so bad.

I pick up my head, I take a glance at his concerned face before starting to walk with distance between us.

We head into the living room and sit down on the couch. I sit all the way to the left of the couch with my knees tucked into my chest.

Sebastian seems to get my need for space right now and sits all the way to the right away from me.

Thank you.

I need to stop acting like a baby, that mission is tonight and I need to get my shit together. I'm not that little girl anymore, I kill grown fucking men with my bare hands.

They are no different.

But they are.

And I can't shake that eerie feeling that they'll be able to get to me.

That I won't be able to protect myself, just like last time.

"Diovanna?" Sebastian calls out.

I turn my head to face him.

"I don't know what happened in your nightmare, but I'm sorry, so sorry" hes apologizing?

"I'm sorry I let our father send you off there, I should have tried harder to get you back. The school wouldn't let me get you out of there even when our father died" he tells me, guilt lacing every word.

"If- if I had stopped him, maybe you wouldn't be having nightmares? It's my fault and I'm so sorry" he repeats.

He feels guilty? Like it was his fault.

And I've been nothing but a bitch to him. I probably made him ten times guiltier.

I shouldn't care, but I do. Why?! All I do is get hurt when I care, but for some odd fucking reason, being mean to him puts a ping in my chest.

'It's not your fault' I sign to him. He has tears in his eyes, a guilty expression on his face.

A tear escapes his eye and he turns away from me.

The pain in my chest only increases so I do the only thing I think will help.

I get off my comfy spot on the couch, sit next to Seb, and embrace him into my arms.

He hugs me back immediately. Now don't get me wrong, I hate physical touch, but he looks like he needs a hug. No one touches me, Lucian and I only hug after not seeing each other for a while. That's it.

"It's not your fault" I whisper. My head still rests on his shoulder, but when I realize I just spoke to him I sit up and freeze.

My hand covers my slightly open mouth and my eyes go wide.

Sebastian looks just as surprised as me.

Holy shit, I just fucking spoke. I spoke to fucking Sebastian. Oh my days. I'm loosing my shit.

"You- never mind. Thank you Diovanna" he tells me.

I just nod. I sit back down and bring my knees to my chest. I rest my head on my knees and lean against Sebastian.

And for once, my eyes close in no time.

I'm sitting next to a man, after that horrible nightmare. Maybe I'm improving. Maybe I'm getting better. Maybe, I can do this.

Im getting better, it's progress.

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I think I slept for about two hours because when I woke up again it was like 8:30 ish AM. I had woken up from my nightmare at like 4:20 AM, but me and Sebastian watched a bunch of movies and then I spoke.

I fucking spoke.

It's been over 8 fucking years since I've spoken. I have to be loosing my damn mind now.

Looking up, Sebastian is still here but he is working on his computer. He didn't leave.

When he notices my stare he looks my way and sends me a soft smile. "I figured you might not want to go to school today so I let you sleep. You have more than average grades anyways" he tells me softly.

I nod. It's Friday and that mission is tonight. I need to plan, because oh fuck I'm gonna freak out. These two men had such a huge impact on my childhood that I freak out if a man I don't know or see as a threat gets within a foot with me.

They aren't the only men who made you like this.

They will get what's coming to them soon.

"Diovanna, Alessia, Elena, Amara, Aria, Luna, Ruth, and your aunts want to go shopping today. The girls don't go to school anymore, Ruth and Luna are just learning the basics and will be homeschooled, and your aunts aren't doing anything today. So when they heard you weren't at school, they wanted to go shopping." He tells me hesitantly, like he isn't sure if I'll want to go.

'Sure, yeah I would like do go shopping.' I say to him.

He nods. "Alright they will be here in an hour while your Uncles and Older cousins will be here for business" he explains.

'Alright, I'm going get ready' I tell him before getting off the couch and heading to my room.

I decide to hop in the shower and wash off the events from last night or should I say early this morning.

When I am done I dry off and head to my closet. I chose some brown sweatpants with a white crop top and black jacket to cover most of my scars. I threw on my Air Forces.



When I finish putting on jewelry and brushing my teeth, I head downstairs.

I hear loud chatter and some laughing so I know my extended family is here.

I walk into the living room, all my aunts, grandma, and grandmother, and all my girl cousins are waiting by the door. Probably for me.

My grandfather spots me first and scowls. The uncles all see me and smile. Uncle Samuel rushes over to me and gives me a big hug, "you look gorgeous sweetie" he gushes at me.

I smile. He is so sweet. 'Thank you' I sign.

I greet all of my older cousins here for business before heading to where the women in the family stand.

"Hey Diovanna, are you ready to go shopping?" Grandma questions.

I nod excitedly. I have not been shopping on a girls day since before I was sent away. I'm excited.

We all leave telling the boys bye.

We all hop into one big limo. Not surprised, this some rich people shit.

I sit in a middle seat between Alessia and Amara. Aria sits on the seat next to Alessia and Elena sits next to Amara. Luna and Ruth sit across from me. Olivia on Ruth's side and Grandma on Luna's side.

Aunt Aurora, Aunt Beatrice, Aunt Maya, Aunt Alexandra, and Grandmother sit in a different section of the limo but still engage in conversation with the rest of us.

It was a forty five minute drive so the twins took a nap. Alessia and Aria argued a bit about who had a better jewelry company. Successful women shit. Go queen.

Amara and I were signing to each other, I really like her. She is like another big sister to me, I even told her a little about what the school was like. She told me how sorry she felt when she heard my father sent me away and that she will always be by my side.

I love this girl so much.

Elena, Grandma, and Aunt Olivia talked about Elena's sex life. Let's just say by the time we arrived at the mall, Elena was as red as a tomato from the embarrassing comments.

When we reached the mall, Elena practically jumped out the car before it could even park. We all laughed at how embarrassed she was.

After we all got out the car, we all began to head inside. People were staring, either because we are the De'russo family and the Baninchi family, or because we were a huge group of women and a couple bodyguards following us. I'm not sure.

We all kinda went to a different couple places and met up in certain stores.

At one point I was in a toy store with Luna and Ruth and then ended up in Victoria secret with Amara and Alessia telling me I need lingerie incase I want to have sex.

Don't get me wrong I have lingerie, but I mostly just wear a regular thong and a regular bra or sports bra everyday. I like to be comfortable.

But I ended up getting them anyways.

We all did this for about 5 hours, heading into different stores, seeing each other and asking for their opinions.

After a while, we all decided to head to the food court to get food. Amara, Alessia, Aria, and Elena were already in the store so we just walked together to go find the others.

We found Ruth asleep in Grandma's arms while Luna was asleep in Grandmothers arms. They were chatting with smiles on their faces.

The aunts were deciding what to eat when we all decided on Mc Donald's because we knew the twins would want happy meals when they woke up.

The aunts all went to grab the really big order while Amara, Alessia, Aria, Elena and I sat down while our Grandmas were still talking.

"So Dio, can I call you that? Ima call you that anyway. What you doing tonight?" Amara asks starting a conversation for the five of us.

'Nothing' I sign, lies I definitely am not sneaking out to go to a club to kill two of my tormentors.

They probably wouldn't care because Amara and Alessia are both assassins, however I don't want them to know who I really am. Elena and Aria weren't deadly assassins but they had both killed before, they were just more into the legal side of things.

"Good, we can all have a sleepover!" Elena shouts.

I immediately shake my head violently before realizing my mistake.

Fuck.

"Why not?!" Aria asks.

Before I can do anything, Amara answers for me. "Cause she won't be home tonight, she is sneaking out" she states, a smug smirk on her face.

I rub the back of my neck and look away. I've been caught.

"Holy shit! I didn't think you were like that! That's badass" Aria shouts. My face turns red and I cover my face with my hands.

"Aww no need to be embarrassed baby cousin, we will even help you so you don't get caught" Alessia tells me.

I scoff, like I would ever get caught.

'You act like it's my first time sneaking out' I sign with a shit eating grin as they look shocked at me.

"Damn girl! Fist bump" Elena exclaims, lifting her fist to mine making an explosion sound when our fists collide.

I chuckle at that.

"Alright girl! Where are you going tonight?" Amara whispers to me as our Grandmas sit down at the table next to us, looking at us suspiciously.

'A club' I sign to her.

She hums. "I wanna come!" She exclaims.

This makes my eyes widen and panic set in. She can't see me kill them! They will know who I am! I don't want that!

'I'm actually going to catch up with an old friend from the boarding school I was at' I tell her, half truth. Cas may not have been there but she knows more than anyone else ever will.

Amara who knows barely even a fraction seems to get the importance of me seeing this friend and buts in. "Yeah that is cool, but we are all definitely going clubbing together some other time." She says sternly.

We all nod in agreement. We all get our food and begin eating.

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We all head into the house after just getting home. It is about 3:30 ish and we're all tired as fuck, well they are but I'm not.

Amara suddenly grabs my arm and drags me upstairs. When we enter my room and she shuts the door, she immediately starts talking.

"Your gonna be safe tonight? I'm not one to say no to you going because I used to do a whole lot of bad shit when I was probably younger than you but at least tell me your gonna be safe tonight because I saw right through you're lie" she explains, a hint of fear in her voice.

I nod, 'I'll be safe, I promise. This will all make sense one day' I tell her honestly. I have Casandra there to make sure I don't freak out.

"Alright, if you need anything call me. I'll be there before you can blink" she says before pulling me into a hug and leaving my room.

My phone pings with a message.

Casandra: We're on for tonight. Meet In the club parking lot At 10:00. We need to get There before them.

Diovanna: Yeah, of course. Thanks Agian for helping me Cas. I won't let anything happen to You, I promise.

And with that sent, I lay on my bed thinking about all the things that could go wrong tonight. All of the things they have done to me, and all the things they could do to me.

This has to be done.

I will end them, no mercy.

Say hello to Lucifer down in hell to me boys.

Cause that's where you're going.

~~~



A/N: okay so, kind of a filler chapter.

Next chapter will be so much better i promise. It's the mission so that's a hint.

Also, when do you guys want the fam to find out who Diovanna really is?

Love you hoes<3

Also, HAPPY VALENTINES!💗

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