MAYA

I was shaking and screaming with pain. Tears were dropping from my eyes and I was scratched my legs with my nails till they got red.

I walked out of bed and knelt down because I didn't feel able to breath in any other position.

I was crying and crying and nobody was there with me.

I no longer had my baby Yazen with me. No longer nobody could kiss me. Nobody could hug me. Nobody could make me laugh. Nobody could help me and nobody loved me like he did...I just couldn't accept the fact that he is not there anymore...

How will I give birth? How will I raise our child alone...? I need him. He is my life and my everything. Since I met him and get to know his real personality not only "the boss" one I felt like I finally have someone to make me feel important and not insecure, loved and comfortable. He is adorable. His eyes are the most beautiful in the world. His heart is stunning and I love playing with it. His lips are perfect and I love to kiss him. His body is perfect. The cuddles he give me and the warm feeling is the best ever. He is the best man in the whole universe and I can't imagine my life without him. My whole world. My husband. My baby. My sweet Yazen. I love him.

I was crying even harder now. I got a panick attack. I had to take my pills. I went to the kitchen and found my medicine. I took one and went back to bed. I was feeling terrible and I got another text from that number.

„He lied to you. He didn't go to quit the job. He went on another mission."

I felt my heart die. Tears stopped dripping and I stopped screaming or crying. I just sat there and looked at the phone. I didn't feel anything anymore. Everything just lost it's meaning.

I went outside the room. There were workers training or doing idk what. I went to the training room that was empty. I took a gun in my hands and looked at it. I wanted to die. So I can be with him. But in that moment I remembered him saying to me all the time „take care of yourself". So I will for my baby boy.

- why he did that? - he loved someone else. - he didn't... - then why he lied to you? He didn't love you. He never wanted family or wife. Just sex partner. - who are you? - you don't have to know. I'm just telling you about his death. - but...what... - I have to go. - I don't believe you. - time will pass and you will believe.

I was still texting and asking questions but he didn't answer. I cried and cried my body shaking and heart in pain.

10 minutes passed and I heard phone ringing.

It was Yazen's number.

I was getting ready to answer a call to hear about his death but I just couldn't accept it

- Hi love -my heart stopped when I heard his sweet little voice talking to me. He was alive.

I didn't answer and started screaming with tears.

- baby what happened?? Are you okay??? I just wanted to say that I'm coming back. - he sounded really worried.

I continued my crying and he got really sad.

- my love what is going on? - I love you.. - I love you too baby but what happened? - I'll tell you at home... - I'll be back in 10 minutes. - okay

Door opened and he walked inside. I jumped out of bed and run to him. I hugged him so tight as never before and kissed his whole body. I walked with him into the living room and told him what happened.

- it was my brother this fucker. - why he did that? - cuz he is saying that he is making fun of me cuz they never though that I'll get a gf but for real he is jealous. He would do anything to annoy me to. - I'm just happy your with me. I love you. - I love you to my love.

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