Je ne te blesse que parce que je t'aime

I couldn't sleep, my thoughts and anger were keeping me awake. I was so angry and I felt humiliated. How can he do such atrocious things to me and expect me to be okay with it, not even that but to give him a hand job. This man is a psychopathic, bipolar lunatic and not to mention a fucking sadist. It funny because I read novels like this, novels where the guy is a abusive psychopath and the girl is some small weak fool who eventually fall head over heels for the man. I always hated those books because the girls are always weak and stupid and make bad choices ...but honestly how am I different from those girls? At least I don't find myself loving or having any small amount of feelings for Chase , I will try and escape every chance I get. Also I remember having a debate online with a person about abused children becoming mentally disturb adults. A lot of people don't understand this but the childhood period of a person is the most important one of development, it shapes a person perspective of life and also their emotions. Having a terrible childhood can either shape a person negativity or positively and I have a lot of evidence of negatively, majority of serial killers have terrible childhood and that's a known fact. Majority of them suffer from PTSD and some of them bottle up their emotions and because they don't have no one to show them love or even a person to talk to, they began to accept their faith and practice what they only know, which is violence. I'm not saying people should show pity for killers..hell no, because it's just human nature to know right from wrong, it's human nature to know that hurting another human is wrong.

I sighed and tried sleeping for 10th time trying to fight my thoughts.

.......

Detective Thomas'pov

I sat in my office chair looking at a photo of the Missing Zuri Jefferson. Yesterday we got a call about her sightings. Someone sworn they saw her in the city of France dressed in a short dressed, walking around frantically. I wasn't even sure if I should believe this person, they themselves seem unsure. I mean if they are being truthful and indeed saw her then that simple means she is being trafficked, a young American girl gone missing in a foreign country and was last seen in a short dress acting uneasy, that got to mean she is being human trafficked.

Knock knock!

"Entrez!" I shouted (come in). The door then opened to show a rookie cop name John.

"bonjour monsieur, vous voudrez peut-être voir ceci" he said. (Hello sir you might want to see this). I knew it was another murder scene or something. I have grown accustomed to seeing dead bodies, it was a norm for me.

......

It was another puzzling scene and I can't help to feel that it is connected with the apartment massacre. This guy's body was definitely moved to be in his car and he had a bullet wound in the center of his head but guess what, the bullet was gone. I look into his car and found his ID, Rory Adebayo a 26 year old male. I put his ID in the evident bag because it might be of some use. Now I need to contact with his family and friends to know about this guy. I also need to talk to more people about Zuri because her roommate obviously didn't know much about her. She came here on a business trip that was paid by her boss who was also her adoptive father, I wonder if I can get in contact with him. I need to know about her, I really need to.

Zuri's Pov

I opened my eyes when I felt light coming through my room. I opened them to see the curtains push aside and Chase was standing there infront of the window looking outside. I didn't even noticed I had a curtain, it was normally only a window come to think of when since the room smell like this? smell like men's perfume, actually it smells like Chase. I opened my eyes fully the see the black painted walls and black furnitures

Why was I in his room?

" Good morning." He said.

" Why am I in your room?" I asked.



"When I checked on you, you were tossing around and making noises so I figure out you were having a nightmare so I brought you to my room." He replied. I felt uneasy in here, sure his bed was comfy and sure it smelt good but I don't want to be near him.

" Did you sleep beside me?" I asked.

" Yeah, You hugged me and so I hugged you back." He said causally. I felt nauseous, how could I hugged him? " You were basically cuddling with me."

" God no, I mean don't take it as anything I like to cuddle in my sleep." I said trying to make sure he doesn't think anything about it .

" I made breakfast, come." He said before leaving the room. I quickly got off his bed and followed behind him. I was so ashamed of my behavior, why would I cuddle him?

..........

He lead me to the table that was fill with food : eggs, bacon, sausages, bread, soup and tea. I was about to sit down until he stopped me and motion for me to sit beside him.

" Zuri, I want you to watch the way you talk to me. I realize that I had been a bit too soft with you, cause I don't let anyone talk to me the way you do." He said as he eat.

" I can't help it sometimes..I can't contro-"

" You can. Maybe I should cut off your tongue, that must can hel-"

" No! I mean yeah, I will try to control it." I quickly said. I can't imagine losing my tongue.

" Also you will no longer sleep in that room, I gave you enough space already." He said.

" Wait, no I actually like-" I then shut up when he gave me a face. The one that shows me that I need to sit my ass down and shut the fuck up. " Okay."

" You will be sleeping in my room." He said. " You will also be able to roam around the mansion. You can do whatever you want just don't leave the premises. You will get lost and I will kill you if you try." I didn't know why but I was kind of happy that I was getting that amount of freedom.

" Thank you." I replied.

" What do you usually do on your free time? since you will be having a lot of that."

" Uh, baking,drawing, painting, read and mostly watching movies." I answered truthfully.

" Okay, my mom used to paint maybe I can get you her canvases and brushes, books are in the book room, baking..well there's a lot of ingredients here and for movies, there's a tv room." He said.

" Chase, wi- will you be going to work?" I asked. " Are you still an assassin?"

" Yeah, I am. I'm a contract killer."

" Like Leon the professional.." I said.

" Like who?"

" Nevermind, it's just a movie." I said.

" It sounds interesting, what's it's name?" He asked

" That's the name..." I said while eating.

" I want to watch it with you tonight. I don't normally watch movies but now I have someone I can watch it with." He said.

Knock knock!

I was frightened by the knocking on the door. I looked to Chase but he looked relaxed.

" Don't worry baby, I have a code on the gate so only people who know me can get through." He then got up and went to the door. Baby? don't ever call me that. Of course im saying this in my mind, if I ever tried to say this to him, who knows what the lunatic would do to me. I then began to hear loud talking in french, it was Chase's voice and another man's voice.

" Et je lui coupe la tête avant qu'il ne puisse-(And I chop off his head before he could- " I turn to see a strange man walked into the kitchen but stopped when he saw me. He was about 5'11, blonde short hair, greyish/blueish eyes and had facial hair. He was an overall handsome guy. "qui est ce joli chaton Chase ?" ( Who's this pretty kitten Chase?)



Ahh Zuri, ma fille." Chase said as he follow behind the strange man. I just sit there and stare at the both of them. ( Ahh Zuri, my girl)

" oooouuu tellement dépaysant et beau, puis-je avoir un avant-goût de ce joli chaton." He then walked over to me and place his hands on my table. ( oooouuu so exotic and beautiful, can I get a taste of this pretty kitten.) I then frowned in discomfort.

" No! Get away from her Antone. Also speak in English around her, she doesn't know much french." He said as he reach in his liquor cabinet.

" An English speaker at that? Zuri....ouuu such a exotic name for an exotic chocolate covered kitten. Why don't you leave this lunatic and let me give you a good ride belle. " He said. God this man was a walking cringe train.

" No, she's my future wife . So no, we can't share this one." He then picked up two glasses.

" What? So the infamous Chase is settling down? Her pussy must be made out of-

" No! no lewd talking around her." He then pour out the liquor. Sure he was raising his voice but yet his expression didn't seem so unbothered. I think he didn't see Antone as a threat. " Anyways Zuri, Antone is my co-worker and friend-"

" Brothers, we are basically like brothers." He then took a glass from Chase. I never take Chase as someone to have friends, he gave an antisocial vibes but then again I barely knew him. " We knew each other since grade 5. I remember Chase was a little skinny shrimp. " He chuckled

" You're an assassin as well?" I finally asked.

" Uh contract killer. Assassin make us sound goofy and cinematic, just say contract killer belle." He added. He then sat at Chase chair and began to eat his food. He then glance at me but finally set his eyes on my face. " Fuck, what happened to your face? Chase? damn Chase I see you already using her as your stress reliever. Already doing the role of a husband." He chuckled. They were acting as if this was normal or something. He was laughing at my bruises, laughing at the fact that his friend is a woman beater and psychopath.

" faut la laisser apprendre. Ça me fait mal de lui faire du mal mais c'est mieux." Chase said. I then looked at him with disgust. How can he discuss about abusing me so nonchalantly?. (gotta let her learn. It hurts me to hurt her but its for the best.)

" Yes, I understand. So what happened to that little red head? You don't want her anymore?" He asked.

" She was for fucking. She knows it and I do." He then sat around the chair drinking the liquor from it's bottle and no longer the glass.

" I see, so I guess you wouldn't mind if I tried it out?"

" Knock yourself out, friend. " Chase said. I felt so uncomfortable, don't mistake I wasn't jealous, I just felt so... disrespected? I was finished eating but I wanted to leave, I don't want to be around them anymore.

"Um, Ch-chase, can I- can I leave now?. I am finished" I asked.

" si obéissant. " Antone said in awe. (So obedient). " Where did you find her? How did you guys meet?" He asked.

" Yes Zuri, if you like you can check out the garden." He then pointed to the door that was beside a large window in the kitchen. " There's the door." I quickly stand up and walked towards the door and immediately I was in awe.



It was so beautiful. I walked out and immediately sniffed the roses and other various plants. I then began to laugh in happiness and joy, I love the scenery. I then ran over to a chair I saw and lay on it. The garden wasn't a open field or anything as it was gated with a tall big gate that look similar to the one at front but at least the garden or backyard was extremely big. I got up out of my seat and continue to explore the garden. Their was a lot of exotic flowers, fountains, benches and bunch of garden sprinklers. I walked until I reach the end of the garden, I then look right because I spotted something in my peripheral vision ,something that looked like tombs? I walked over there and there was three tombs.

Ici repose Marguerite Moreau-Laurent. Une mère, une sœur, une fille et une amie. 1976-2011 (Here lies: Margaret- Moreau -Laurent, a mother, a sister, a daughter and friend. 1976- 2011)

ici repose Marie Laurent, une fille, une sœur et une amie. 1994-2011 (Here lies: Marie laurent, a daughter, a sister and a friend. 1994-2011)

Ci-gît Jacques Laurent 1963-2013 (Here lies: james laurent 1963- 2013)

Marguerite had a angel over her tomb and so does Marie while Jacques had just a simple tomb with no labels just his name and date of living. Also his tomb was dirty and had vines growing on it. I wonder if these are the same people in the painting?, I wonder what happen to them. Marguerite and Marie died so young... especially Marie, she was only 17. I came to the conclusion that it was the same people in the painting and the boy was Chase and he was the only one left alive. I chuckled at that thought, Chase a violent, derange murderer was to continue his family's legacy. I also spotted a apple tree and strawberries. Wow this garden was amazing. I ran over to the trees and picked about 6 apples and 4 strawberries. I lay on the nearest bench and feast. I wonder where I would be if I didn't leave the club that night, maybe I would've dated Rory...Rory, I suddenly lost my appetite remembering him and what happened. He was killed and it was all my fault but at the same he could've just listen to me. I began to cry, I caused the lives of so much to be taken.

...........

Meanwhile

Chase's Pov.

"Chase je vous le dis, la dame m'a payé des milliers pour tuer sa fille." Antone said. I was trying to listen and make point but my mind was on Zuri. ( Chase im telling you,the lady paid me thousands to kill her daughter.)

" Mmm." He then noticed I wasn't listening and decided to change to topic.

" à propos de ta copine, Zuri. ou vous etes-vous rencontrés. Elle a l'air familière... est-ce qu'elle est mannequin ou quoi ?" He asked. (about your girl, Zuri. where did you meet. She looks familiar....is she a model or something?)

" nous nous sommes rencontrés dans un club" I said. (we met at a club )

"oh! était-elle cette fille qui t'a aspergée de gaz poivré ! donc tu étais sérieux après tout. Je pensais que tu ne voulais que du sexe ?" He questioned. It was true, my intention at first was purely lust but for some reason I fallen for her, I can't explain why but I just like her. (oh! was she that girl who peppered spray you! so you were serious after all. I thought you only wanted sex though?)

"Yes she was. It was only for sex but she was very stubborn and I had to kill a few people for her so I guess I had to keep her around to put her in full use but the more I am around her, the more I am fascinated." I explained.

" Well you soon tired of her, when you d-"

" I won't." I said quickly.

" What? Of course you will. Once you realized she's just another pussy you will quickly run her away. I'm just here to tell you to pass her to me when yo-" I couldn't contain myself anymore. I was beyond angry at him. I took up a fork and stabbed it in his hand. " Ahhh what the fuck?!"

" I told you I won't. She's not just another pussy and if you ever refer to her like that." I then stick it in further. " I will fucking kill you. I allow for your other remarks to slide because I know your just an ignorant moron who only see women as objects,but whenever you show up here you will show her respect." I then took the fork out and he immediately got up and held his hand.

" Funny you say that about me, as if you didn't kidnapped that woman? Don't you see her as an object to just take her away and use her as your punching bag!" He yelled in pain.

" I'm going to give you some time. Remember what I said, I don't care how long we are friends for. I will kill you, now leave."I said calmly, ignoring his remarks for I know they weren't true. I saw Zuri more than an object and that's why she's here and alive.

.......

I watch as she sleep peacefully in the garden, with half eaten apples and strawberries on the ground....cute. I lifted her up and brought her to my room on my bed to sleep. Since we will be married soon it's only fair that she sleeps with me from now on.

To be continued

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