Suis-je en train de tomber?

Two weeks has passed since Chase allowed me to go in the garden. The two weeks were actually pretty good since Chase was barely home and when he was home he would be in his room or the gym room. I spent my time painting, reading, watching movies and baking. I haven't really tried anything and I've been extremely obedient, trying my best to not slip up. Also I've been sleeping beside Chase, gladly he hasn't tried anything or even cuddle me, I guess my presence alone is good enough for him. Although one thing that bothers me was that whenever he was going to leave, he would hugged and place a kiss on my lips, sure it was not bad but honestly it still made me uncomfortable and cringed . Also I've noticed that Antone was showing up a lot lately but honestly whenever he was around I would hide out or just make myself busy, doing all I can to avoid talking with that guy. His eyes were always on me and it's hard to enough to deal with Chase always staring, now I had to deal with him. One thing for sure that I absolutely hate was the fact that I was getting comfortable, I hate that but gladly I was only getting comfortable with the home and not Chase, Chase was still scary. He seems like he was watching me intently, waiting on me to do something that upsets him so he can retaliate. Sometimes I wonder how Gregory is coping, it been about 3 weeks and couple days since I've been kidnapped. I don't watch news or anything, but I honestly don't think they have any leads or clue about what happened.

I was cooking today, I liked to cook and bake and I also like when Chase would eat it and compliment me. This might sound stupid but when he approves of what I'm doing I feel proud, feel like I accomplished something great... I don't know why but it made my stomach erupted in butterflies whenever he would smile, ask for more food or tell me that I should be a chef. Today I decided to cook some Jamaican food, I haven't ate any since my grandma got admitted in the hospital for diabetes.... God, I missed that woman, hopefully she will be able to leave to hospital soon with all that treatment she's been getting but I don't know how she will handle my predicament, I'm literally all she got. I just want to make her happy.

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I was sitting around kitchen island reading a book when Chase walked into the kitchen in his turtle neck shirt and chinos. I didn't even heard when he came home.

" Mmm what are you cooking?, It smells delightful." He said. He then took off his shirt and was now in a white tank.

" Just some Jamaican food." I said casually. He then walked around where I was and place a kiss on my cheeks.

" Interesting...I don't think I have ever ate Jamaican food." He then walked out and come back without his shirt in hand and instead a box. He then put it on the counter. " I bought you something."

"Okay, thanks." I then took the box and opened it. It was a diamond necklace, immediately I touched the one that was still around my neck, I had forgotten about it.



"Who gave you the one you have now?" He asked.

"Huh?" I questioned. Why did he wanted to know that.

" Honestly I just want you to have my gift around your neck only." I chuckled. I'm not taking off my necklace.

" Uh I-i why- why would you want that? It was a gift by someone I loved dearly."

" Who gave it you?" He said as he began to touch it.

" Greg-mom, my mom!" I lied. He then hold it.

" You're lying, don't lie to me Zuri. Who gave it to you? "

" Gregory, he is like my father so-" without hesitation he ripped it off my neck and throw it on the floor. " What the fuck!" I then got off the chair and grabbed the broken necklace. " Why would you do that?"

" Put mines on instead." I wanted to scream at him but I immediately remember what he did to me two weeks ago. So I just picked up Gregory's necklace and placed it in my pocket.

"Okay." I said. He then went behind me and put the necklace round my neck. I then gasped when I felt him grabbed the back of my neck.

" Don't ever fucking hesitate when I tell you to do something." He the release me and left. I looked at him angrily as he walked out.

"Fucking musty ass cracker." I said lowly to myself. Surely his necklace was gorgeous but Gregory's one was given to me out of love while his was definitely out of possessiveness.

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I had finished cooked and finished sharing the plate of food which was my mom's favorite ; Curry beef and rice and peas with mixed vegetables for the side. I wished I could've cooked curry crab or oxtails but when I asked him couple days ago to buy them he was like " oshtrail..vwhut iz oshtrail?" I said mocking his accent, I just told him nevermind but he did bought the crabs though, I didn't bother to cooked it because I had to make it marinate and that would take long.

" Chase!" I called out. I walked up to his room and there he was sitting on his bed writing in his poem book or whatever. "Chase?" He then looked up at me.

" Dinner is ready." He smiled and got up. I then walked back downstairs while he was following me.

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" Wow Zuri, what is it? It looks delicious?" He questioned as he looked at his plate that was fill with food.

" Ya know it's just curry beef and rice and peas." I said as I picked my food up ready to go around the table.

" I want to watch a movie with you." He said. " Let's eat in the sofa while watching television Zuri."

" Okay." I didn't know why but I felt happy that he wanted to watch movie with me.

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I sat in the coach and place one of the pillows on my lap then my plate and the glass of wine he handed to me, I place that on the center table. He then did every single thing I did. "Follow fashion monkey." I said in my mind.

" Mmm what do you want to watch?" I asked him. He then looked over at me and stared for couple minutes till he answered.

" Anything. I don't remember when last I sat and watch a film." He then turn is face away and took a bite of the food. " Mmmm wow so spicy and yummy. " I then tried to hide my smile.

" It was my mom's favourite dish to prepare." I then felt my mood lighten up while scrolling through Netflix. I saw a movie that would be very amusing to watch.. especially with Chase, Norbit. I smiled widely as I put it on the film.

" Uhhh very interesting cover." He said and I just chuckled.

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" Oh no! Why would she try to fit herself in there!" He cried out jokingly. I was laughing none stop, his reaction to the film was priceless. It was like a complete different person, he was laughing, cringing and even making jokes? Was this all a act? Why was he acting like a ....normal person.

" All the water is no longer in the pool!" He exclaimed. I stopped laughing for a bit and just stare at him.

" I know right!" I said as I stuff the rest of rice in my mouth, finally finished the whole plate. His half eaten food was resting on the center table, he was so invested in the film that he couldn't bother to pay any attention to the food.

" Oh my, Zuri this film is absurd..is this really what Americans are like?" He asked in awe.

" This is the dramatize version fill with far fetch stereotypes so I don't think it's reliable. Also is this your first time watching a comedy film from America?" I questioned.

" Well, when I was a boy...a much younger boy, I used to watch a American films all the time, one that I can never forget... probably because it was the last I would come to watch. My father banned us from watching movies other than french movies and I guess I just completely stopped watching movies in general and never tried again to-"

" What film was that?" I asked.

" Uh I don't remember the name...uh ...I think it's about a blonde boy who was stuck in his home and two intruders broke in and he set up some tr-"

"Home alone!" I interrupted. He then smiled widely at me.

" Yes...I think that's the name."

" If your dad hated Americans so much, how come you know English so good? Why'd you learned it?" I asked

" Um... English isn't exclusive to Americans.. don't be dumb. My father didn't hate Americans, he just didn't want us to rot our brain with their media. He said it was like junk food and the more we watched it the more dumber we get. As for my English, since my father wanted me to take over his company I had to learn English and other languages so I could be able to communicate with business associates or future business partners." He explained. I was kinda embarrassed for asking such a dumb question.

" Did you take over his company?" I questioned.

" No. I gave to my uncle. He owns it now..." He said.

" Why didn't you take it?" I questioned.

"Because I don't want to."

" So you rather kill people for money than me an honest business man? I bet your dad probably left millions for you.."

" He did."

" So your rich and could've been a CEO but instead you kill people for cash!?" I exclaimed

" Who said I did it for the cash?" He raises his eyebrow and now has his serious face. " I don't only do it for the money..that's just a plus. I do it because it's give me a feeling, an electrifying feeling." I was now scared. He had a weird smile on his face and his eyes were now dark and staring deep into my soul.

" O-okay...look Norbit is so funny! Haha" I said awkwardly, trying to change the subject but failed as his eyes were still on me.

" If it makes you feel any better. I don't normally kill innocent people...well maybe when I get very..angry." he said and suddenly a thought cross my mind.

" Um Ch-chase, how did you knew that I was in that car the day I tried to ran away? I mean- I just don't understand?"

" Zuri, I had a feeling you would try to escape so I alerted some of my friends beforehand to watch out for you, I tell them your description. Zuri...I have eyes all over France... connection all over this country Zuri. You can't hide here, I'm sorry to say."

" You're friends know you kidnapped me?!" I questioned.

" Some...the ones I can trust. While I was in my car driving.. looking for you, one had call me and told me they saw you begging for help, said they were going to take you to my home but a man who knew you, spot you. Friend told me he was going to kill the guy but it was in public so he let you go." I then immediately remember the lanky crooked nose man who offered to bring me to his home. He was friends with Chase?. " He watch the direction the car was going and tell me and gave me the license's plate number and you know what happened next."

" B-but... I - "

" Shhhh, let's just finish watched the film." He said. He then picked up his plate and began to eat his food. People knew where I was? I mean they are his friends so what did I expected. It just feel weird, so basically when I was running around.. people were probably watching me. Now I kinda felt embarrassed, I didn't have a chance of escaping that day.

" How are your friends okay with you kidnapping people?" I questioned. He then chuckled.

" Because some are worse Zuri. These people are involve in some very terrible shit, love. They can't judge or question my actions when they have done things far worse. "

" Oh..." I then looked at him with my brows frowned. I suddenly felt the same uneasiness I always felt around him. " Uh- I'm feeling sleepy...maybe I should go sleep." He then looked at me and looked over my body.

" Your cold?" He questioned and I frowned in confusion.

" I- I don't know why you thin-" I then realized what he meant, I could feel the heat in my face and I immediately use the pillow to cover my chest. " Jesus!" He then chuckled.

" I can turn down the-"

"No, don't. " I then fold my arms in annoyance. " Let's just watch the movie."

" Uh...I'm sorry if that cause you to be embarrassed." He said as he began to play with one of my braids.

" It's okay...maybe I'm cold, probably that's why they are they hard." I said.

" I know. You think I thought it's because you're turned on? I mean I know I have that kind of magic but if I really wanted to turn you on, I would've done this." He then rest his hands on my thigh and slowly began to move it up.

" I-" He then skipped over the area I thought he was heading for and grab the pillow and moved it off of me.He then used his other hand and place his food beside him so it wouldn't fall over. His hands then brush against my stomach until they were now on my breast. " Chase." He then squeeze it a bit and then come closer to me and now there was hardly any space left between us. He then used his thumb and began to rub it against my nipple. I wanted to push him off but I have to admit, this was arousing.

" Do you like that?" He then pinch my nipples and I flinched. He then grabbed my throat, not too harshly and brought his face closer to mines. " I want to taste you....but I don't think you want that. For now I want to suck your tongue." I then swallow nervously, did he had to say it like that?. " Open up your mouth.

" I-"

" Do it Zuri." I then did it. I opened up my mouth like a idiot and close my eyes, I was expecting him to stick his tongue in my mouth but instead he force piece of the beef in my mouth. I pushed him off of me and began to choke on the piece of meat. I fell to the floor dramatically of course and began to cough while he was laughing hysterically. I then spit the meat out. The one time I was trying to engage in his fuckery without resisting, he had to ridiculed me like this. I then looked back at him with hatred.

" Why would you do that?!" I questioned.

"You can't take a joke?" Him asking that and doing that just reminded me so much of my past.

"It's not a joke!" I cried out. I then got up and ran away with tears rushing down my face. I then ran upstairs and ran into the room I used to stay in, I then slammed the door shut and throw myself on the bed. This moment felt so much like the one I tried to forget.

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8 years ago.

I was sitting alone in the cafeteria listening to some music on my phone trying to block out the loud vulgar students. I was in the far corner of the cafeteria and I had my own bench to myself. I was actually at peace because bitchface and her dumbass minions were kinda ignoring me since morning and now I'm here in the cafeteria listening to some of my favorite tunes while reading my favorite book.

"Hey, whatcha reading?" I spoke too soon. I looked up at bitchface and her minions.

" Oh my fucking god." I groaned out in annoyance. " Lilith can you like leave me alone today! Please can I get a fucking break!"

" Yeah of course...just wanted to see how your doing." She then looked back at her friends and giggled.

" Im okay. " I then closed my book and was preparing to leave when she walked over and sat beside me.

" Don't leave as yet. I think I want to say I'm very sorry for all the shit I've caused." She said and I looked at her knowing she was fucking around.

" Really now?" I questioned.

" Yes! So truce?" She then stick out her hands, I was hesitant but I then pull my hand out to grab hers but before I know it she grabbed my hand and pull me towards her and she then caught me off guard and force something in my mouth, I then push her off and fell on the ground and spit out what looks like a hairless mice. I then began to vomit and cough violently. She was laughing hysterically while her friends were fake chuckling.

" Um maybe we went too far." One said.

"No we didn't, she will be okay. It's just a joke." Lilith said.

" Just a joke?! That's not a joke!" I then got up and then pounce at her. I normally fight back but wouldn't win as her friends would always jump in but this time they didn't. I was scratching and punching, trying my best to destroy this bitch face.

"Somebody get this crazy bitch off of me!" She cried out. I then grabbed her head and began to slam it on the ground trying to kill her. While doing it I felt a sharp stab in my side, I stopped and grabbed my side and felt something poking out, i got off of her and heard someone said. " Omg they stabbed her with a pen!" I then ripped the pen out and got up and ran off before her friends began to do more damage to me.

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Present

I remember how I cried that day, scrubbing my tongue until it bled. It was traumatizing, having someone force a dead mice down your throat is so fucking bad. Should I even pray to God anymore? Because all my life I've been praying and praising him when all I got in return is this...this shitty life. I hate remembering that day, it was one of the worse thing Lilith could've done. Also I can't believe I actually like the way Chase was touching me, I never been touched like that but God it was so sexual and arousing. I should try to escape again, the more I stay here the more my body-my mind adjust to this...to this fucking nightmare!. Why was I even adjusting to this? Oh shit.

"Oh no, I can't get Stockholm syndrome!" I cried out. I then got up and began to walk back and forth panicking. " Wait if I did have it I wouldn't acknowledge it! So no I don't have it... right?" I was talking to myself like a lunatic, switching from emotions to emotions like a mentally ill patient, I was going mad. I need to relax. I need a plan and I need to make one fast before my mental health worsen

To be continued

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