The next morning . I woke up to the sound of birds chirping outside the window, first time I live in a place so peaceful I love it . Nkosi was already up , sitting on the edge of the bed , staring at me with a disapproving gaze.

Nkosi: So , you think you can sit at home and study all day ?? ( so the previous day before we slept I told Nkosi that I wanted to go back to school and finish my matric even if it was online.)

Nkosi: What's the point of educating a woman ? Your only duty is to focus on our marriage and eventually take care of our children

I felt a surge of frustration at his old-fashioned view and mentality.

Me: But Nkosi education is important for everyone, regardless of gender , it's the key the a better life .

Nkosi : ( he scoffs) A better life ? (ha) you will just become proud and disobedient. A woman's place is in the hole taking care of her family .

[I couldn't believe what I was hearing , ]

Me: But Nkosi , I want to make something of myself . I want to be independent and make my parents proud nami even though se ngi shadile

Nkosi's expression turned angry .

Nkosi : you will do as I say !(shouting) You will forget about this foolish education thing in you brain and focus on being a good wife , siyazwana?!!

Me: Yebo baba ( shaking with fear , I don't want him to beat me again )

Over the next few days Nkosi became more controlling than ever , he told me what to do at what time , how to do it and made me cut contact with my friends. ( back to square one I guess , I didn't think after he surprised me he'd turn out like this .)

Monday

I woke up early in the morning to make my "loving" husband breakfast and lunch for work .

Nkosi : Sawubona mama

Me: yebo baba, Unjani ( ya neh , kuningi nje , never thought I'd be a submissive wife at this age )

We have a brief conversation and Nkosi tells me about how his day is looking and the time he'll come back at . He then leaves , I take a shower , I wore my pink 2 piece mini skirt with a white top and the top pink crop blouse with heels and a small white bag , and went out for a solo lunch . Life is so boring without friends

While I was out I decided change things between Nkosi and I because despite Nkosi being controlling my feelings for him just grew day by day . I got some beautiful red candles, rose petals and a new perfume ( good girl - Carolina herrera) this scent is to die for .

I went home , gave the stuff a dayy off , I cooked some samp with stew and a few sides ( I needed a break from pap , this man eat pap everyday ). I then went into the alcohol cabinet and I took some red wine for us . I made a beautiful set up and I wore a beautiful black dress with heels and waited for him . It was now 22:00 Nkosi should been back at 17:00 . I decided to wait a little longer with tears streaming down my eyes ( why was I sad) . I eventually fall asleep on the table while waiting for him

Nkosi's pov:

I decided to go get some drinks with the boys today after work , it's not like I enjoy being home anyways . I call my boys Tshepang and Ntokozo , they pull up and we went to one of the clubs I own , we drank a bit and got to catch up while having fun ,I had so much fun after my life turned upside down

Around 02:00 I called my driver he fetch me and took me home , as I entered the door I was met by rose petals, I followed them and they led to a beautiful dinner set up , fuck I messed up . I saw Khanya sleeping there on the table , she must've been waiting for me ...

I then gently pick her up in bridal style and luckily she doesn't wake up , I take her upstairs to our room , I manage to undress her , and get her under the blanket. I took a quick shower and joined her , she looks so beautiful, I can't stand the fact that we married but she doesn't love me , see I treat her like this because I don't want her to know that I fell inlove with her , while she didn't even want me...

[Nkosi fell asleep ] ...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Heyyy guys thank you so much for reading my story , I tried making it a bit long , I'm so tired today but tomorrow I'll post more . Thank youuu so much for the support

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