I barely slept because I was thinking about what Phi Hill said all night. Now I'm sitting groggily in my chair with an empty mind. Since I haven't slept much at all this time, I'm quite used to this state. My brain seems to be working much slower.

It was a bright morning, not too hot. I didn't forget to take a picture of the sky as before. I put up the paper Phi Fah wrote yesterday to cheer me up every day. If I encounter something bad someday, I will tell myself that "It's OK."

I decided to tell my friends the truth. It's time. I also think I'm ready. Otherwise, they will be suspicious, as there have already been many times when I avoided Phi Fah. They must know there is something. It is the same thing that Ter and North noticed.

Last night, our drawing club chatted on LINE. I decided to tell Dao about it. Daotok and I are getting closer, he is someone who has a hard time getting along with others.

Daotok was actually a playful and friendly person, but he told me that his school friends betrayed him, including his ex-boyfriend, so he didn't want to confide in anyone. However, Daotok trusted us and told us everything.

When I first learned about Dao, I realized that everyone has different experiences. When North was abandoned, it was difficult, but in the end everything ended well. As for Ter, he had a bad experience when he misunderstood Phi Hill and argued with his family. But in the end, everything got better.

I used to think I was better after meeting everyone, but deep down, the family problems were still buried deep in my heart, like a knot that kept hurting and gnawing. I hoped that if I talked, and told them everything, they might not be able to help me, but at least they wouldn't go anywhere.

As for what Phi Hill said yesterday, telling me to go thank Phi Fa.... I really don't understand what he meant. A person like Phi Hill would never forget. He must have said it intentionally to make me think again.

Or was it a clue? Why? Why do I have to thank Phi Fah? What exactly happened?

I had been thinking about this question all night until I got tired of thinking of an answer. Suddenly, someone knocked on the door. I glanced over and saw that it was Ter and North who were waiting out front.

"Hi," I greeted. "What have you got there? "North was carrying a bag full of snacks.

"Snacks, Phi Jo's mom brought them for me, but there were too many, so I brought some to share," North said as he placed the things he was holding on the table.

"Wow, really? Thanks," I said happily before opening it to see what snacks were there. "What about Dao?"

"He'll be here shortly. He's at the songthaew," Ter said as he reached over to open the bag of snacks with me. North plopped down on the bed.

"Gluttons."

"Then you won't eat, will you?" said Ter.

"Of course I'll eat," North said as he surveyed the room. "Sit in a circle so we can eat snacks together."

"On the floor?" I asked.

"Yes, yes."

The three of us moved the snacks to the center of the room and sat in a circle, chatting and joking. Daotok arrived and the four of us sat in a circle, talking until we forgot why we had gathered.

"Well, what is the purpose of this meeting today?" asked North.

"It's about me."

"Oh, right," said North, still chewing sandwiches in his mouth. "If you don't want me to talk anymore, then tell me."

"Wait, I didn't say it like that," I said and laughed a little. "I mean, it's about my story."

"Well, I know you don't want me involved in your business, animal."

"Why are you so angry?" I laughed because North was acting very serious.

"We'll talk about something I experienced, is that more understandable?"

"Ah, ok."

"Just like that?" I raised my eyebrows and asked.

"Oh, why not? I'm waiting to hear it."

"You're so impatient, North," said Ter. "It's probably hard to tell."

"So what do we do?" asked North. "Is it a secret?"

"A secret." I nodded.

"How secret?"

"How good are you at keeping secrets, North?"

"Gee, I don't want to brag about it," North said casually. "You know, even the president asked me to help him memorize the nuclear codes."

"That much?" I asked, my eyes going wide.

"Yes, I'm very good at keeping secrets."

"Really?" asked Ter with an expression of disbelief.

"Yeah, I've been keeping a secret from one of my friends about liking another friend for a year now."

Is this really a good idea?

"It's just...from really.... I really don't want them to tell anyone," I began to speak seriously. "It's kind of a secret. A real secret. Don't tell anyone, especially the doctors." Everyone began to frown and grimace seriously, except North, who was still bright-eyed.

"North."

"Hmm, what?"

"Do you understand?"

"Uh, do you think I'm a big mouth?"

"Shit."

"Just kidding, Phoon. I know when to be serious," North pouted, feeling annoyed.

"Okay, maybe...it's...not something you guys think is serious. But it's my whole life, my life before I met you guys. I'm just asking you guys not to hate me," I said, clasping both my hands together. My hands were starting to get cold, as the silence in the room and the atmosphere began to get suffocating, I could hear my own heartbeat.

"Do we look like the type that would hate you?" asked Ter. "Of course not, right, Dao?"

"We don't hate cats, even if they scratched our faces," Dao said. Those words made me smile. "If you scratch me, I'll take you to get vaccinated."

"Then... I'll tell you..."

At that moment, I began to tell the three of them everything. Everything, really, since I was a child, the history of Phi Fah, my dreams, my family, all the punishments I had received, everything. It took me almost half an hour to tell them. Ter listened with a straight face. Dao was the same, unlike North who looked increasingly angry.

"That bastard."

"North, calm down."

"What the hell is wrong with your father?"

"North..." said Ter to stop him. North is already impetuous. I get it. He was really upset.

"It's okay," I said. "I'm a little pissed off too."

Whew.

"I'm sorry. I really shouldn't have said that," North said and sighed.

"It's okay, North. You can talk. You can tell me."

"Um, I just want to say that not everyone is fit to be a parent."

"That's true." I nodded slightly and looked down at my clasped hands. "But he's already my father."

"Damn Phoon. You're cool dude," North said.

"Me?"

"Yeah, you're really strong, you know that."

"Really?"

"Yeah, thanks for getting over it," Ter said and got up, knelt down in front of me and said, holding out both arms. "Give me a hug."

"... Ter." I said the person's name softly. The tears that came out of nowhere slowly fell. I gently hugged Easter and rested my face on his shoulder.

"I..."

Sob, sob, sob.

"You're such a crybaby," North said before gently rubbing my back as if to comfort me.

"Oh, it's okay, Cat," Daotok came over and hugged me gently, so I reached out my other hand to hug Dao as well.

"... Thank you guys so much."

After crying and hugging them, I went to the bathroom to wash my face and eyes before coming out to find that my naughty friends were playing with my table.

"What are you guys doing?"

"Is it Phi Torfan?"

"Um, why?"

"I thought you were a fan of some artist and as a fan, you had so many pictures of that artist," North said. I was already sitting in my chair. "You must really miss her, don't you?"

"Hmm," I said softly before collapsing on the bed.

"Should I put my picture up so you can miss me?"

"... I don't think that's a good idea."

"North is trying to interfere with your thoughts, Phoon," Ai Ter said, and came over to sit beside me. Dao stood next to North, looking around the table.

"Cat, do you write her letters every day?"

"Hmm.."

"Gee, I'm too lazy for that."

"I thought you liked to draw and write" I said.

"That's work," Dao said. "I like to work."

"No work, no money. You have to eat and spend money, don't you, Dao?" said North, before pulling out his wallet to get something and putting his student picture on the table.

"Do you have scissors?"

"North, what are you going to do?"

"I'm going to glue up my picture."

"Your student picture?"

"Um, I don't have another picture. Ah! Here are the scissors." North reached into the drawer without asking permission and cut out the blue background of his student photo. "Where's the glue?"

"You mean I have to read a book while looking at your picture, really?" I frowned and asked. He must mean it, because he cropped the picture.

"And here's the glue." He found more glue. He shouldn't have used it and put it in the drawer. "Do you want a picture of Ter and Dao?"

"No."

"Why?" replied Ter immediately. "Why do you want North's picture but not mine? I won't accept, Phoon, I won't accept. I'm upset, how about you, Dao?"

"Oh, gosh. Why do you do this, cat? Don't you love your friends equally." Dao said with a frown, as did Ter, who was acting moody while sitting next to me.

What the hell...?

"Phoon loves me. don't you know?" said North with a shrug. He put glue on the picture he had just cut out.

"You losers need to take care of yourselves, okay?"

"'Take care of ourselves,' my ass."

"Hey, Ter, why are you so cruel?" said North and burst out laughing.

"Who do you want, Phoon? Pick one, me, Dao or North."

"Why do I have to divide between the three of you?" I asked.

"Pick one, North, he doesn't need you."

"This is getting out of hand." I said, laughing out loud. what the hell is going on, "I can't pick all three of you?"

"Phoon, two-handed fisherman," Ter stood up and pointed at me. "Didn't you say we'd love each other forever?"

"Oh, so you broke up with me to be with Phoon?" said North. He remembered that the two of them had just broken up the day before. "How could you do this, Ter?"

"You're an old man. Get out of here."

"I'm hurt. Phoon came here, I'll beat you."

"What? Why?"

"You stole Ter from me."

"Wait."

"Let's talk like real men."

"... Uff, Dao, stop these people." I turned to ask Daotok for help when I saw that Ter and North had no solution. At first, they were fighting for me, but then, Daotok just stood there, holding back laughter and shooting a video.

"In short, it's a love triangle. At first, North and Ter were dating. Ter broke up with North over chocolate. Then, Ter started liking Phoon. but Phoon chose North instead," Daotok explained. "It's up to Phoon to choose one or the other."

"I don't want to choose anyone."

"Life requires choices."

"Choose Dao."

"Uhh?" North said. "That means... Ter and I will get back together. Okay?"

"Okay, but you can't steal chocolate from me again."

"For my friend, I can do that."

"So, you're back together? They just broke up yesterday." I said and sighed. North is a sensible person. Ter is usually the one who agrees with Daotok.

"Hey, Phoon, can I print it out?"

"Okay, why?"

"I have to use it." North's words made me stand up to find out what he was doing.

"Why are you about to print Naruto's picture?" I raised my eyebrows and asked.

"I'm going to put my face on it." North took the photo and cropped out just Naruto's torso and put his face, which was his student ID photo. "Perfect."

"Don't do that bastard."

"I've already glued it on."

"... Son of a bitch." Currently, on the wall in front of my desk, there is a picture of North dressed as Naruto. It's quite a sight.

The problem is that I have to sit at this desk and read books every day. Do I also have to face the image of North as Naruto every day? Damn...

"He's so mean," Ter said, laughing out loud. "And his head is bigger than his body. Your image is too big."

"Why Naruto?" I asked.

"Who wants to be Hokage." Oh my goodness... Protect the village too, Hokage-sama.

"Ter, would you like that?"

"Yes, absolutely."

Why don't you consult me about things first? It's about the wall in my room.... Subsequently, Ter transformed into a big-headed character, due to his disproportionately small torso, and was placed next to North-Ruto. Maru-chan... Doesn't his face look strange to you today?

"Are you interested, Dao?"

"Uh, sure."

Phew... I can't help it anymore. Do whatever you want. Then Dao Tok turned into Shin-chan. North used Shin-chan's picture and placed Dao's face.

"Why Shin-chan?"

"I like Shin-chan."

"Ok."

"How about you Phoon?"

"No."

"What do you like? How about cats?"

"No."

"Jii? A Jii cat maybe." Dao Tok suggested.

"Yessss, they're cute." North said. "Speaking of cats, which one do you think of?"

"Doraemon," said Tor.

"Okay. Fat ones are good."

"North," I said his name softly, but he couldn't seem to keep up.

He started printing images of Doraemon, intentionally reducing the size a little so he could stick my head on them, and I became a Doraemon with a bigger head, still a cat, but also a 21st century robot cat. At first, there were images of Good Night on the wall, but then it was filled with cartoon characters, and they were all terrible. Sorry, Fan. Fan's images had to be next to these images.

"Come on, when you feel bad reading a book, looking at them will make you feel less stressed," North said.

"I'll try harder than looking at your faces, they're your student ID pictures, bastards."

"You have such a puffy face, North," Ter said after looking at North's student photo.

"It was giving me too much light and I squinted."

"But how can you squint? You just had to look at the camera normally," Ter said, "But Dao, you came out very well in the photo." Daotok smiled and accepted the compliment somewhat sheepishly.

Then we went back to sitting in the circle as before. North invited me to play PokDeng. I remembered that the last time I played, Dao had read my fortune and mentioned something about love. At the time, I had completely forgotten about it.

"Read our fortune," North suggested. He was someone who was very interested in fortune telling. He believed in it to the point that he himself admitted he was superstitious.

"I can't read it today," Dao said.

"Why?"

"It's locked... As if I can't read it."

"Oh," we nodded in understanding. "Uh, hey Dao."

"What's wrong?"

"Is your reading accurate... Do you have some kind of sixth sense?" my question made Ter and North turn to look at each other at the same time, and Daotok was silent.

"What if I said yes?"

"Well... it's just that I wanted to ask you..."

"Phoon..." North called out to me in a trembling voice. North was the kind of man who wasn't afraid of anything in this world. The only thing he was afraid of were ghosts. He was afraid of them to the core.

"I don't have any sixth sense." I sighed for no reason. Daotok smiled a little before we went back to playing cards.

"Oh, by the way, the gifts you talked about," North said as if he had just remembered something. "The ones you said were arriving for someone named Ren, did you keep them?"

"Yes, I kept them."

"I want to see them, may I?"

"Sure." I got up from the card game and went to take out the four boxes and put them in the middle of the room. Everyone immediately turned to pay attention to them.

"Do you know who gave them to you?" asked North as he turned the box over and opened it to look inside.

"You assume it's your real mom, right?" asked Ter, opening another box to look at it as well.

"Hm...truth be told...I wished it was."

"So, you never saw who was dropping them off?"

"No..." I shook my head.

"Maybe 'Ren' is the name your mom gave you, before your dad changed it to Typhoon," North said.

"I don't know. I don't know where to find evidence or information," I said, feeling annoyed. It was just Ren's name written there, what should I do with it?

"If they sent it to the wrong person, that would be funny."

"Yeah, what if that's what happened?" I nodded in agreement with North.

"But, if it's your real mother, what will you do?" asked North. That question gave me pause. That's right... If she is my real mother, what should I do next?

"Should you go see her?"

"I don't know, but I want to see her. I want to ask her everything, but on the other hand, I don't dare."

"Very well."

"..."

North's words made me turn to look at him. "Let's look at these gifts, maybe we'll find out something."

"Aum."

"This is..." Dao's voice made us turn to look at him at the same time. Dao took the model of the robot from the box. "This robot is a limited edition."

"Really?" I asked, wide-eyed in disbelief. I crawled on my knees toward Dao.

"Yes, it was only produced in the second half of the year, and it was only at the beginning of the year."

"Wow..." I looked at him in amazement. "Then it must be very rare."

"Wow. I saw someone post that they were looking for it, because there were only a few produced."

"Is that true?" Ter raised his eyebrows and asked.

"Of course. I've liked collecting things like this since I was a kid and I wanted one too." Dao looked at the robot in his hand with glowing eyes. I could tell he really liked it.

"Where was it produced?" I asked.

"Japan."

"So, do we have a little clue now?" said North. "It's as if this gift was sent in 2008. It may have been shipped from Japan, but there's a good chance."

Yes... As North said, there are many possibilities. The person who sent it could have been in Japan and sent it from Japan, or a tourist who bought it in Japan.

"I think the person who bought it, must have been Japanese."

"Why?" I turned to ask Dao.

"I don't think foreigners know much about it. There's not much stock and the company wasn't well known at the time. It was only bought by the Japanese."

"Does that mean the percentage of buyers is Japanese?"

"Yes, I think so."

"But there is a possibility that she asked someone else to buy it."

"Hmm, that's true."

"But at least the material should have been sent from Japan to Thailand." Dao Tok said. "Models like this are fragile, they probably don't ship them often. Just once from Japan to Thailand is enough."

"Oh." I nodded my head in understanding.

"If we find out who sent models from Japan to Thailand in 2008, we might be able to find the person who sent them." North said. "But how?"

"That's right."

"There would be only one person who sent models?" Ter said.

"Oh, that's right."

The four of us sat and thought about it for a while, but in the end, we couldn't come to a conclusion on how to find the person who sent them. We only got a little information from Daotok, and then we had to put the robot back in the box.

We talked about me while we were still playing cards. There was also the family issue, all three agreed it was a dilemma, because it was about my father anyway. As for Phi Fah....

"So, in conclusion, you like Phi Fah, right?" asked North. I nodded slightly, embarrassed. Being asked directly like this made me feel really embarrassed.

"What a coincidence, he's Phi Hill and Phi Jo's friend," Dao said. "It must be fate."

"I think this is too much of a coincidence," I said.

"What can we do, are you okay?" asked Ter.

"I don't know. It's very uncomfortable."

"Hmm, I noticed that too. Ter told me he felt something was wrong between you and Phi Fah," North said.

"Do you think Phi Fah will be mad?"

"I don't know. But he said hi to me yesterday," I said.

"What about you, North? If someone tells you you're annoying: 'What the hell, you annoying bastard, get lost.'"

"Hey, lighten up," I said, laughing a little. "You guys are hanging out with Phi Fah's friends, and just because of that, my dad is even more suspicious of me."

"Why is he suspicious?"

"He's afraid I'll get close to Phi Fah."

"You should get close to him."

"No way." I shook my head slightly at North. "If Dad finds out, he might change my faculty. Besides, he likes to call me a liar. I don't want to be what he accuses me of being. I already lied to Phi Fah once and it makes me feel guilty to this day."

"Oh, what could you do?" said North annoyed. "I don't know what advice to give you. If anyone asks me what I should do if I secretly like someone, I'll tell them I'm courting them."

"Because you're the type to flirt with people," Ter said to North. "There must be a way to approach you. You want to talk to Phi Fah, don't you?"

"Yes I do... I want to talk to him. Just a normal conversation. I just want to know how he's doing."

"That's not so hard," Dao Tok said in a calm tone.

"How?"

"Meow promised he wouldn't get involved with Phi Ton Fah, didn't he?"

"Ahm."

"Then don't let Phi Tonfah know it's you, cat. That's all."

"How?" North frowned, looking confused. "Should we have Phoon wear a mask and talk to Phi Fah?"

"North, you idiot," Ter said. "What should you do, Dao?"

"Write a letter. Doesn't our cat like to write letters?"

Oh... That's right. I can write him a letter....