Chapter 171 A snowfall

Shen Sui'an lowered her eyelashes, and the shadows covered the deep emotions in her eyes.

"Don't you understand yet?" The lazy and casual voice was neither slow nor heavy, but every word hit Shen Sui'an's heart accurately, "There is cause and effect, and the cause of all this is you."

Perhaps because of Shen Sui'an's identity, the man rarely said a few more words: "If you hadn't changed, that person would have a smooth life, and the world would also develop in the original direction..."

The corners of her mouth curved up a playful arc, smiling, "However, I gave you many opportunities to stay, but you refused."

Shen Sui'an still didn't answer, but tilted her head to look in the direction she came from, with a little sour eyes.

She seemed to be going to break her promise...

There weren't many people she cared about in this world. Cenxi had a place to stay, but Xie Yubai... would he be the only one left in the future?

"Save the world?" Shen Sui'an looked up at her, and murmured in a self-deprecating tone, "I can't even save myself..."

The man looked at her leisurely.

Shen Sui'an suddenly asked, "Do you think it will snow today?"

The man answered irrelevantly, "It seems that you have made up your mind. In that case, I will tell you another piece of news."

"What?"

"Every dream you had before was real."

Shen Sui'an's throat was dry: "I know..."

The voice stopped abruptly.

Her pupils shrank, and her eyes were full of disbelief.

"So, you guessed it."

Shen Sui'an shook uncontrollably, feeling cold all over, as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, freezing every cell in his body to the point of running wildly, but it was still useless.

Is it true...?

So, every time she had a dream, she really appeared at a time node in the past...

It's just that because it was a soul state or some other reasons, no one could see her, no one could feel her...

"Is your choice still the same?"

Shen Sui'an pinched his palm, forced himself to calm down, opened his thin lips, and uttered a word lightly: "Yes."

The person's beautiful fingertips touched the white chin, and laughed softly: "You are really different."

"I have conditions." Shen Sui'an ignored her compliment that was similar to compliment.

"Tell me about it."

"Erase all traces of my existence in this world."

The man raised his eyebrows slightly and agreed straightforwardly: "Simple."

"Since you are saving the world, do it thoroughly. It shouldn't be difficult for you to restore the world to its original track."

The man sneered: "No one dares to ask so many of me."

"But since it's you, why not agree to it."

Shen Sui'an's brown eyes drooped: "I want to see him again."

"Look again, are you willing?"

Shen Sui'an was silent for a moment.

"I don't have that much patience. I told you so much just to make this play end perfectly. Now you should come back."

"..."

**

Night fell quietly, the orange-red light was swallowed by the dark, and the black and white lines intertwined in the sky.

A few snowflakes drifted down, landing leisurely on the hyacinths that were in full bloom, followed by countless snowflakes flying up and down, turning the sky and the earth white.

The man sat by the window, his tall and slender figure was particularly lonely at this moment, his straight back bent, and his sparkling fox eyes were dim.

He looked straight out the window, and although he could not see anything, he still stubbornly refused to move his eyes away.

He waited from the morning sun to the night, but never saw the person he was thinking of.

He was expecting that person to sneak up from behind and suddenly startle him; he imagined that he would pretend to be startled, then hold the person in his arms and kiss her...

He even thought about what to say, what expression to make, which hand to hold her with, and what posture to kiss her...

Unfortunately, his expectations were dashed.

In his sight, he could never see the figure that he had engraved in his heart.

The cold wind blew, freezing his heart.

A light flashed in front of his eyes, and a slight chill brushed his cheeks.

His eyes suddenly brightened, and he turned his head and said happily: "Sui Sui, next..."

The voice stopped.

The empty and dim room had no evidence of her existence, as if everything was an illusion, everything was his imagination.

His bright eyes gradually dimmed, the smile on his face gradually disappeared, the corners of his lips were bitter, and sadness and despair lingered around him.

After a while, he still finished his words: "Sui Sui, it's snowing."

But no one responded to him anymore, no one laughed and threw themselves into his arms anymore, no one kissed him happily anymore...

Time passed little by little, and the snow outside was getting heavier.

He heard cheers from outside the window.

So noisy...

He wanted to close the window, but he couldn't bear to leave the scenery, and he couldn't bear to leave... her.

The snowflakes fell with the wind, shaking off all over his body.

Xie Yubai lowered his head, his mind was empty for a moment, and he thought with some regret that they had not sat together to watch the snow...

He watched numbly until——

The memory in his mind was forcibly pulled, and he was completely panicked.

In his memory, the girl smiled and called him, but he could not hear her voice, could not see her face, and even her figure was gradually fading and disappearing...

Xie Yubai's eyes were bloodshot, and he curled up on the carpet with his hands tightly holding his head. The veins on the back of his cold white hands bulged, and his face was full of pain.

The snow outside the window rustled into the window, and there was an inexplicable sense of fragmented beauty.

Xie Yubai resisted the pain that made his head explode, staggered to his feet, picked up the handmade knife from the table beside him, and when he held the handle, he stabbed it into his left palm without hesitation...

Blood instantly overflowed from the wound, and then continued to flow down along the skin.

He leaned against the window, his forehead was covered with sweat, his thin lips were slightly pale, and his brows were tightly knitted.

The red blood matched the pure white snowflakes, which was a bit weird and seductive.

The white carpet was soaked and stained.

The hand holding the handle of the knife was shaking slightly, but the movement did not stop for a moment.

"Bang!"

The dull sound of the hand knife hitting the floor was particularly harsh at this moment. He fell to the ground, his eyes were red, his bloody hands fell down powerlessly, and the cut flesh could vaguely see a word.

——Years old.

The memory was corroded more seriously, as if it knew he was resisting, and then the pain in the mind intensified, it was a punishment...

"Xiaobai."

The familiar and bright voice seemed to be remembered in my ears.

She said: "If one day the memory of me is forcibly erased, don't resist it."

It's so harsh...

Xie Yubai didn't want to listen.

But...

Xiaobai will not refuse any request from Years old.

He let that power devour all his memories of her. At that moment, tears burst out and fell on the carpet in large drops, without a trace.

In the silent room, the voice of grievance fell softly.

"You broke your promise again..."

I hate you, but I love you the most.

Chapter 172 Cheng Yuan's Perspective

I am Cheng Yuan, a time traveler.

Yes, a time traveler without any cheats, systems, or missions.

I am a time traveler who traveled through time and space. I have lived for more than 20 years without experiencing any major setbacks. Just when I thought I would live my life in peace and stability...

The end of the world has come!!

I was stunned.

No one told me that I would have to experience these things after traveling here!!

Can I regret it now and start over?

Even if I can't start over, there must be some cheats.

Novels and TV dramas are all played like this.

There are indeed cheats.

Less than an hour after the end of the world, the system calling itself 001 came to me.

It told me that I was the heroine of this world, and I needed to find the hero of this world and redeem him, so that he could feel the warmth and rekindle his hope for life.

I blinked in disbelief, and asked again uncertainly: "Are you sure it's me?"

001 confirmed: "Yes."

I was even more confused.

I never thought that I, a salted fish, could become the heroine who saved the world after traveling through time? ! !

Could this be the legendary salted fish turning over?

But is this really something I can do?

Facts have proved that it is not!

But unfortunately, I didn't know it at that time.

I was ambitious and full of passion.

Isn't it just redemption?

I sneered.

A small redemption, just try it.

Then, with the help of 001, I successfully found the target of my mission this time.

How should I put it...

A handsome man with a dark complexion, a world-weary temperament, and a dangerous sense of aggression.

What else can I say? I can only say that he is worthy of being the male protagonist, he is really handsome! He perfectly hits my aesthetic point.

My previous mentality of simply completing the mission has completely changed. I think it seems that it is not impossible to have a different relationship.

I am definitely lucky.

...Facts have proved again that it is really impossible!

I am not worthy of it!

I found that there are more than one strategist in this world. There are many people who have tried their best to get close to the male protagonist Xie Yubai, but I don't know what means Xie Yubai used. In just two days, those people disappeared.

My desire to rush in blindly suddenly withered.

This matter still needs to be considered in the long run.

I spent a lot of effort to finally get into Xie Yubai's team, and then...

There was no then.

He would not give too much attention to anyone, and the only person who spoke to him was a girl named Cenxi.

I thought again and again and decided to approach Cenxi.

But it was proved again that approaching Cenxi was useless.

Xie Yubai was not interested in anything, and he didn't care at all, even his life.

What I don't understand is that every time he went on a mission, he was careful not to get hurt...

That night, I seriously asked 001 in detail about the life of the male protagonist Xie Yubai.

I listened with great interest, with a constant smile on my face, but no one told me that I could get to the end of the story by supporting the couple, and that it would be a be? ? ?

I was numb.

The determination to complete the task before began to waver.

"Aren't you very capable? Why don't you let the other person's wife come back to life? Wouldn't that save a lot of trouble?"

001: "This is not something we can decide, you just need to remember your task."

I just lay down and said: "I refuse."

"Why?" This time it was 001 who was confused.

"Please." I was speechless. "He already has a wife, and he still loves his wife so much. I approach him and care about him. To put it nicely, it's called redemption, helping him regain hope. To put it bluntly, I am just a third party who interferes with other people's feelings..."

"Sorry, I don't have much ambition, but my morality absolutely does not allow me to do this."

001: "That's what I said... But, his wife is dead."

"So you are not interfering with other people's feelings, nor are you a third party."

I snorted coldly: "I said, don't want it. You can do whatever you want, I won't serve you anymore."

001: "What if he dies?"

"If he dies, he dies." I spread my hands, "Nothing to fear."

Anyway, in today's world, I am very self-aware. If I can live a little longer, I will live a day, and if I can't live, I will die.

Simple and rough.

001 was silent.

I originally thought that this matter was over.

I didn't accept the mission, didn't complete the mission, and the consequences were nothing more than being punished, or the system finding someone else to abandon me...

But I never thought that my body and my mind were completely on different pages!

I watched with my own eyes how many stupid things I did and how much effort I put in to get close to Xie Yubai...

It was too much to bear. As long as I remembered that these things were done by me, I would be so embarrassed that my toes would fall to the ground.

I asked 001: "Can you still ignore the host's wishes and force them to do the mission?"

001 seemed puzzled: "I don't know either."

"..." I rolled my eyes very elegantly, "Then what can you do?"

001 simply didn't answer.

It was quite smooth.

"I" successfully approached Xie Yubai and stayed by his side, and my favorability was slowly increasing...

001 was so unhappy, I felt a little uncomfortable.

This man was still keeping his chastity for his wife some time ago, what is he doing now?

I was a little wrong, we were close, but there was no physical contact.

Every time "I" tried to hold Xie Yubai's arm, he always found a reason to avoid it.

It would be fine if it happened once, but it would be a little strange if it happened twice or three times.

I began to doubt his purpose.

However, before I could think clearly, reality had already told me the answer.

"I" was imprisoned by Xie Yubai.

That was the first time I saw him like that, the whole person blended into the darkness, bloodthirsty and cold.

His question was simple: "Call it out, I have something to ask."

And: "Can the dead in this world come back?"

I think he's crazy.

He walked towards "me" step by step on the floor, his cold white hands stained with bright red liquid, and his thin red lips raised a cruel and crazy smile.

"I" felt my whole body shivering in fear, and I heard "my" voice: "What are you talking about... How can a dead person come back..."

"Mad... You're crazy..."

The cold touch was on "my" cheek, and I met his sinister and bloodthirsty eyes, and my soul was trembling.

I wanted to escape...

Escape regardless of everything.

But my body was trapped here, and I saw with my own eyes how that person killed me.

A single cut to the throat.

Blood spurted out, and he died with his eyes open.

The man looked gloomy, slowly wiping his bloodstained slender fingers, as if he was wiping a work of art, his movements were extremely elegant.

He looked down at the body of "me" on the ground, snapped his fingers, and turned away.

The flames devoured all sins.

Chapter 173 Very lonely

I was still sighing with grief for my hasty death one second ago, and the next second, the two tears that didn't come out rolled around in my eye sockets for a few times, but didn't fall to the ground.

I am very sure that I am dead. Although I didn't feel any pain, I saw very clearly that my body was burned to slag...

But who can tell me what is going on now?

I looked down at my illusory and almost transparent body, and the corners of my mouth couldn't help twitching.

I didn't do anything against the law, did I?

Is it because I had some thoughts that I shouldn't have?

But no matter what, at least my consciousness is still alive.

Isn't it said that if the consciousness is not extinguished, it is not considered a complete death.

I was not restricted, so I started to wander around the world in the following days.

There was nothing to see, the world was devastated, full of fear and displacement.

No one could escape such a disaster.

I saw the dangers I had never seen in my life, the ugliness of human nature and the scalp-numbing and unprovoked malice.

After the end of the world, it seemed that some people released their nature and did all kinds of evil. They were wolves and wolves, and the damage they caused to the survivors was even far greater than the zombies and the bad environment.

Some irony.

At first I was so angry that I wanted to kick them or slap them, but then I became numb.

I couldn't do anything.

I could only watch.

I found Xie Yubai again and stayed in District 7.

Compared to the chaos in the outside world, I still prefer this rare peace...

Even if this person killed me with his own hands.

I wandered around District 7 when I had nothing to do, and heard a lot about what happened after I left. After piecing together bits and pieces, I roughly understood what happened.

In the end times when everyone was in danger, Xie Yubai and Cenxi and others established a base, which gradually improved and became the current District 7.

The base was not peaceful. People without power would still be bullied and have a hard life. But compared to the days of wandering, this kind of life was a luxury.

In the entire base, Xie Yubai was probably the most idle.

He was really idle.

He was so idle that I felt anxious for him sometimes.

But I thought I might have a serious illness. Being with him, even if I did nothing, made me feel safe.

I was shocked.

I don't remember that I had a masochistic tendency.

I patted myself and warned myself to be sober.

Xie Yubai's daily life was simple, even monotonous.

He opened a garden in the backyard of his villa and started to plant flowers by himself.

Yes, when others were working hard to find supplies, he was planting flowers.

When others were struggling to survive, he was also planting flowers.

Later, when the flowers were planted, he changed to watering.

Later, he just watched the flowers.

I couldn't sit still, so I went out to play for a few days. When I came back, I could go to the backyard without any obstacles and I would definitely see him.

Unless he left the base, he would never change.

Sometimes I would sit there for a whole day, staring at the hyacinths and gardenias in full bloom with lifeless eyes. Occasionally, I would think of something, and my eyes would be filled with a faint tenderness and fragmented light.

His back was thin and looked particularly lonely and desolate.

My good mood became low, and I felt a little sorry for him.

He seemed... very lonely.

Not very, but very.

He was very lonely.

It was the kind of heartache that made people feel inexplicably sore in the eyes and bitter in the heart just by looking at his back.

I was probably really careless.

Maybe it was because time had passed little by little, or maybe I was still here, so I completely forgot about the matter of "he killed me".

He sat for another day.

He didn't say a word.

He seemed to be asleep.

When he woke up, his eyes were blank and empty.

After a few seconds, he slowly took out a photo from his pocket, and gently stroked it with his beautiful fingertips. There was light and tenderness in his eyes. Because he hadn't spoken for a long time, his voice was hoarse when he spoke, but it was full of longing.

"Sui Sui..."

I was startled, and with my current advantage, I could see the photo very clearly.

The photo has yellowed a bit, but it is not difficult to see that it has been well preserved by the owner. It shows a girl with the sun on her back. The girl has a high ponytail, fair skin, a smile on her face, and a pair of almond eyes that seem to be able to speak. It is a kind of impactful beauty.

"Are you blaming me? Why don't you come to see me once..."

His murmur was blown away by the wind, "How long can I remember you?"

His tone was full of sadness.

"I... miss you..."

"Year after year... every day like this, so tired..."

His head leaned back on the recliner, and the photo was placed on his chest, tightly.

"I'm really tired..."

I think he can't hold on any longer.

But he seemed to be stubborn and managed to hold on for another half a year.

That day, the weather was very good.

Xie Yubai left the villa, as if he was going out.

I was used to wandering around the villa, trying to find something fun to distract myself.

Even if I was curious, I didn't follow him to find out.

I'm not stupid. Judging from my situation, this person probably knows a lot. He probably knows more about the system and the attackers than I do.

But I don't care about these.

I'm dead, so why should I care about the mission and the system.

Of course, I can do whatever I want.

Just when Xie Yubai was leaving, a girl came into the villa.

The sun had just come out, and the girl was facing the light. For some reason, I felt that she was familiar.

Later, I realized that she was three or four points similar to the girl in Xie Yubai's photo.

I turned my head suddenly, and I saw that the man was distracted.

About three seconds.

When he lowered his head, a bitter and self-deprecating smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

The man's name is Jiang Wennian.

He is from the 13th District of Nanzhou.

[What's going on? Why did I receive a notice saying that this person is the heroine...]

The familiar cold electronic voice suddenly rang in my ears, and I was startled.

"You're still here?" I said angrily, "I'm dead, and you just came out? How rude! But I'm dead, why are you here? Why don't you just go and take over?"

001 was silent for a second: [Do you think it's so easy to take over? This mission will always exist as long as it is not completed. As long as the male protagonist dies once, it will start over again. I have taken over your mission several times, but I failed every time, and you don't remember every time...]

It was very frustrated.

[Am I a very despicable leader? Before I took on this mission, I had never failed...]

I smiled and replied naturally: "That's because you haven't met me."

001: [...]

"So the wrong identity will be changed back? The trajectory will develop in the normal order?" I asked it, "What about me? What's going on now?"

[The mission failed, and it will start again soon. ]

"Why?"

I didn't understand, and I was shocked.

"Hasn't the real heroine come? How can this fail?"

I accepted the fact that I was not the heroine very quickly.

To be honest, I am quite self-aware.

It's not realistic to say that the salted fish turned over.

Chapter 174 To survive

Oh, don't get me wrong, I'm talking about me who didn't try hard.

[This is different from the information I received at the beginning. At the beginning, you were said to be the heroine. Why did it suddenly change now? And that person doesn't have the system yet...]

"What's so strange about this? I'm dead, and I refuse this mission..."

001 is still struggling.

I'm not in a hurry anymore, and my eyes are not far away.

Xie Yubai has left, Jiang Wennian and the people around her are talking to Cen Xi and the others. I didn't listen to the details because 001 has something to say again.

[That's why the incident happened. The male protagonist's personality is twisted now. It's only a matter of time before he finds out Jiang Wennian's identity. After knowing it, I guess his fate is similar to yours...]

I said "Oh" in surprise and corrected him: "Twisted personality? I think he's quite pitiful..."

"You're not pitiful when you die?"

I can't see 001's expression, but I'm sure it must be speechless and disappointed that they couldn't make it.

Don't talk about him, I don't understand it myself.

I'm obviously the most pitiful, but I'm pitiful for the culprit who killed me.

"My brain is not normal, don't talk to me about theories and great principles now."

After a brief silence, I asked: "If I start over again, will my memory disappear again?"

I want to know, will I be so miserable in the next life?

001: [Theoretically, yes.]

"I told you, don't talk to me about theories."

[...]

001: [Yes.]

"Don't you feel guilty?"

[What?]

"I'm dead, not only did you not say anything, but you also did nothing, causing me to become a ghost now, don't you feel guilty?" I started to fool it.

[...Is it?] 001's voice changed, [I think you are quite happy. 】

"I'm just pretending." I said seriously.

【...What do you want? 】

"If you say so, I should have restarted several times. Although I don't remember and it's not in line with common sense, it's not hard for people to accept. But I don't accept that I'm being cheated every time."

"In the next life, whether you let me remember or give me some cheats, at least let me know some things in this life, or stay away from it all."

001 sighed.

【It's not that I won't give you a cheat, but I accepted all the news not long ago. In other words, every time I restart, I will be like you, and all my memories will be retraced. 】

"Hacks don't work?"

【Hacks can only be used now, and I don't have the ability to maintain it until I cross a dimension. 】

I pouted: "Okay."

It looks good but is useless.

As if seeing my mind, 001 paused and said unconvincedly: [I'll give it a try.]

[Let me make it clear first, I can't guarantee success or failure.]

I nodded and said gratefully: "Being able to try is a kind of success."

What if it succeeds?

Then I will have a different ending.

A life and ending that belongs to me and only me.

Jiang Wennian's matter didn't seem to cause much waves, because except for the first sight, until she left, Xie Yubai never came back.

On the third day after Jiang Wennian left District 7, Xie Yubai came back.

That day, he did nothing and sat in the backyard for an afternoon until dark before returning to the room.

At that time, I lazily collapsed on the sofa. When I saw that tall figure, my eyebrows raised, but I didn't move.

"Xie Yubai."

I moved my ears and couldn't help but tilt my ears.

It was Cen Xi.

"Is there anything?" The man's voice was cold, with the coolness of the evening and the hoarseness of not speaking often.

"You..." Cen Xi looked at him and paused for a second, "Are you still looking?"

"Yeah."

He was very sleepy, yawned lazily, his eyelids drooped, and he was listless.

"I remember you have a photo of her. Can you give me one?" Cen Xi looked a little sad. "I don't remember her very well."

Xie Yu raised his bony hand, pressed his brow with his fingers, and spoke in a cold tone: "No."

"Why?"

The man opened his legs and passed by. He said, "Because I only have that photo of her."

When he stepped onto the first step, he stopped, tilted his head and pulled his lower lip, as if he was smiling, but there was endless coldness in his eyes: "Cen Xi, forget it if you forget it."

Cen Xi frowned.

"Resistance will be punished."

The light words made the one person and the soul open their eyes instantly.

What does he know?

"What do you know?"

"No matter what, you don't need to intervene."

He left behind a tall and thin back, without looking back, just moving forward, as if walking on a road of no return, a road that no one has walked before.

"You are her best friend, she doesn't want you to get into trouble."

"What about you?" Cen Xi said to him, "She doesn't want you to get into trouble either, she wants you to be alive more than anyone else."

The man's steps did not stop, he sneered, and said, "So you can see me now."

Cen Xi stood for a while, and after a while she bent down in frustration, and went to the backyard in a depressed mood.

Oh, there is one more person watching the flowers.

I began to digest their simple conversation.

This world seems to be deliberately erasing the traces of Xie Yubai's wife, and it seems to be quite successful...

Is it for a better strategy?

Thinking of this reason, I smiled disdainfully.

This episode was quickly forgotten by me. For me now, it seems that nothing is important.

No need to look at other people's faces, no need to care about other people's feelings, no need to be bullied, do whatever you want, say whatever you want.

The only thing is loneliness.

Except for 001, I can't communicate with anyone.

So most of the time, I talk to myself.

In short, this kind of life is not bad.

I paid more or less attention to Jiang Wennian's affairs. I only heard that Xie Yubai went to find her later. As for the result...

My consciousness began to become drowsy, and my eyes kept blackening.

I guessed that 001's words might be confirmed.

I just don't know if Jiang Wennian died? Or Xie Yubai died?

At the moment when my consciousness completely disappeared, 001 explained to me: [The male protagonist of this world has died, and the strategy has failed. ]

I'm still dead...

Let's all die.

It's good to die.

As expected, my mind is no longer normal.

I don't know how long I stayed in the darkness, I only remember that these memories gradually faded.

Before I really died, I saw someone breaking into this place like a ray of light.

I peeled off the light and saw that it was my old self.

I used up my last strength to pass on all my remaining memories to her...

If possible, I, who accepted these memories, please live well in the next life.

I must live.

Live as myself.

Chapter 175 Xiaobai's Perspective

I am Xie Yubai.

As far as I can remember, I have been following a homeless man. Before I was five, one of the places I went to the most was the police station. It was not until I was five that the man sent me to an orphanage.

That day, I met a very interesting girl.

Her chubby face was pink, her big eyes seemed to be able to talk, and her skin was very white, as if it could glow in the golden sunlight. She wore a yellow dress that was washed white, like a butterfly dancing in a flower field.

I snorted and prepared to leave with an indifferent expression.

A baby.

He forgot that I was only five years old now.

But I didn't expect the change to come so quickly.

In the last second, she was a quiet and delicate girl, and in the next second, she beat up a group of children by herself, and they were so angry that they almost called their mothers.

At the end, she put her hands on her waist, looking fierce and not easy to mess with, raised her chin and said fiercely: "My fists don't have eyes, next time I will beat you up on the head."

Although this is a bit childish, it has to be said that it is completely useful for a child of that age.

In fact, her body is not in good condition. There are several shocking red scratches on her fair face, and there is still blood on them.

I was a little shocked.

How can such a thin body have such a strong explosive power?

However, after she walked away from the sight of those people with her head held high, her true colors were exposed. Her beautiful facial features wrinkled together, and her teeth were bared, obviously in pain.

I couldn't help laughing out loud.

When our eyes met, there was silence all around. I was stunned. She stared at me and said in a crazy tone: "What? Do you want to be beaten by me too?"

I was speechless for a moment.

To be honest, I didn't understand the sudden emotion just now.

But fortunately, it came and went quickly, and I didn't care.

I stayed in the orphanage.

I didn't see the girl that day for a few days.

But sometimes fate comes and can't be stopped.

I saw her again a week after I arrived at the orphanage.

She looked well-behaved and smiled sweetly at the dean.

The dean was a very kind old lady. After noticing me, she smiled and waved at me, motioning me to come over.

That was the day we officially met.

Maybe it was because the surrounding environment was safe, or maybe she didn't remember me, she was surprisingly friendly to me.

She said, "My name is Shen Sui'an, Sui for Sui Sui Ping An, and An for Lan An."

After that, she said, "Do you know Lan An? The dean said it is a tree, but unfortunately, I haven't seen it yet."

The dean touched her head kindly and said softly, "You will see it when An An grows up."

There were tiny stars in her big eyes, which were her yearning for the future: "The dean must be with me when the time comes."

The dean just smiled and did not give a reply.

I listened without saying anything, but my eyes were fixed on the hand on her head.

"What's your name?"

"Xie Yubai." I introduced myself as usual, but I felt it was too cold, so I couldn't help but add a few more sentences, "Xie for thank you, Yu for jinjinyouwei without the three water drops, Bai for baishi."

I haven't been exposed to much knowledge, these are still told to me by the homeless man.

"Xie, Yu, Bai."

She shook her head lightly and called out the words clearly.

My first reaction was that my name could be so nice...

"That's how it's pronounced, right?" she asked me.

I opened my mouth, hesitated, and nodded.

The knowledge I had was not enough to answer this question perfectly.

Later I found out that our names can form a nice idiom.

——Years and Clouds.

——Years and Clouds.

Then I was delighted for countless years.

After that day, we started to get to know each other.

To be more precise, I went to find her.

Probably because I found it boring, she never refused and played with me every time.

Even though I thought those games were childish, I still patiently cooperated with her.

Our relationship became closer and closer.

The first time I realized that I was moved was when I was fifteen years old.

Nothing earth-shattering happened that day, it was a very ordinary day. On our way back from school, the afterglow of the sunset fell on her body, she was facing the setting sun, and her delicate features became blurred.

At that moment, she seemed to be glowing all over.

She was like the center of the world, and my eyes could not move.

At that time, a firm thought surged into my heart: no matter what happened in the future, I would protect her smile and protect her.

I wanted to be with her for the rest of my life.

After that, I worked harder and harder.

I had to have enough confidence to stand by her side.

Sometimes I would wonder, did I really like her in the dusk of fifteen years old?

Actually not.

I just realized that my heart was moved at that time.

I liked her a long time ago.

At first I wanted to wait until she was eighteen years old, but later I was stimulated and everything was advanced.

The reason was the day of high school graduation...

I was really impressed.

When I was in high school, I went here and there to warn him every day, but I didn't expect that there would still be someone who slipped through the net!!

I have some impression of that boy, but not much.

But for me as a student, I didn't take it seriously at all.

After all, the boy's legs trembled when he saw me. I had imagined a thousand situations, but I didn't expect that he had the ambition and courage to confess to my future girlfriend!

I was so angry that I changed all my plans and ran over to claim my sovereignty.

Of course, I won in the end!

I raised my chin proudly as if I had won a battle, and looked at the boy with disdain as he ran away in shame...

"Xiaobai, you are very strange."

She narrowed her eyes, and her suspicious and scrutinizing eyes fell on me.

Facing her gaze, my mind was heated, and the lines I had practiced countless times in the past were completely replaced by my impromptu performance: "Now that I have graduated, do you want to date me, my classmates?"

The moment I said this, I wanted to die.

"I mean, do you want a boyfriend who can laugh with you, cry with you, go shopping with you, buy you milk tea, candied haws and desserts, treat you well, and kiss and warm your bed in the future?"

I tried every way to make up for it.

"But except for the last two, haven't you been doing these things all the time?"

"..."

I choked and stopped talking.

Even if I acted confident and calm, I was actually still panicking in my heart. My clenched palms were full of sweat and my heartbeat was already overloaded.

When you like someone, you will always have wild thoughts.

I used to disdain it, but now it is no exception.

Then I began to comfort myself, maybe she just couldn't adapt to the sudden change of identity; maybe it was because she had never thought about this problem; or maybe she didn't know how to answer for a while...

I took a deep breath, resisted the bitterness and loss in my heart, and said stubbornly: "The last two belong to you and are exclusive to you, do you want them?"

So, do you want me?

Please, classmate, say yes.

Maybe my eyes were too hot, she dodged and lowered her head to look at her toes.

My throat was dry, my Adam's apple rolled, and I slowly said, "It's okay, you think about it again..."

I pressed her head, "I... I'm not in a hurry."

"Xiao Bai, if you press my head again, you will really lose a cute, well-behaved and coquettish girlfriend."

She looked up at me accusingly, her red lips opening and closing, "Others rub it, but you press it, right?"

She waited for a while, but didn't hear my response, and couldn't help but pouting, "What are you doing? You were the one who confessed first, why is it so awkward? It's embarrassing."

My wandering thoughts returned.

"What did you mean just now?" My voice was a little hoarse, and my palms were open, feeling cool.

Asking this question at this time is obviously not suitable for the situation, but I am too nervous and excited, my mind is blank, and I can't remember anything.

I need time to restart my brain.

"Just now?" She blinked innocently, "What did I do just now?"

I understood instantly, and pressed her head unhappily, "You scared me to death."

"You still press it!!"

"I just love eucalyptus."

I snorted and answered as a matter of course.

She didn't hear it, and was so angry that she wanted to hit me.

Of course I...

I just let her vent her anger.

After all, it's better to keep the girlfriend you just asked for.

...

PS: Years are passing by, and the sun and the moon are gone.

——"Book of Wei·Music"

The year has come to an end, and I am not happy now.

——"Cricket" by an unknown author.

Chapter 176 We get our marriage certificate

The first time we kissed was at her 18th birthday ceremony.

We don't have many close friends, and she doesn't like too much noise, so that day, besides me, only Cen Xi was there.

Of course, with me, Cen Xi couldn't always be there.

So after the gifts were delivered, the birthday song was sung, and the birthday cake was cut, I ran away with my girlfriend without waiting for Cen Xi to take a bite, leaving Cen Xi speechless and choking.

That night, the sky was dotted with stars, accompanied by the bright moon, and the moonlight was hazy.

She stood on the rooftop, her elbows resting on the railing, the evening wind blew her hair, and her eyes seemed to hide billions of stars. She tilted her head and curved her eyebrows at me.

The moonlight tonight is beautiful, and the evening breeze is gentle.

She is incredibly beautiful.

"Xiaobai, today is my birthday."

My eyes vaguely swept over her slightly opened red lips, my Adam's apple rolled, and my voice spilled out: "What do you want?"

"Anything?"

"As long as you want."

As long as she wants, anything is fine.

"Then I want a gift." She came close to me, her almond eyes full of moonlight reflected my appearance, and she said, "I want you..."

My throat tightened, my eyes darkened, and my hands on her slender waist kept tightening.

It's November now.

The night wind is actually very cold, but it doesn't stop me from feeling hot all over.

It's almost hot.

Her hands hooked my neck and pressed it back, she tiptoed a little, and then the lips I had coveted for a long time fell on my lips.

At that moment, countless fireworks exploded in my mind, making my ears buzz.

The wind around me was paused, and I was so nervous that my breathing almost stopped, and my heartbeat was completely out of control.

A second before she was about to withdraw, I came to my senses, grabbed her waist, and deepened the kiss.

I regretted that I didn't read more relevant theories in the past, which made my movements extremely unfamiliar and immature.

She didn't say anything, but I saw her lips were swollen.

The emotions of an 18-year-old boy are like a flood, always rising unbelievably.

The kiss that day seemed to have opened a certain gate, and I became addicted to something, and it was out of control from then on.

But I never took the last step.

Before I had enough ability.

In the same year, I went to the police academy and she went to study medicine.

I even joked with a smile: "Police and doctors, a perfect match."

"We are classmates of the same age, it seems that we should be together, a natural match."

She pursed her lips, and didn't seem particularly happy.

"Baby, believe me, I'll be fine." I raised a big smile and kissed her lips, "Don't forget, I'm Xiaobai."

Her tense face gradually relaxed, and she glared at me helplessly: "I don't care, you are not allowed to get hurt, or I will ignore you."

"Okay." I held her in my arms and rubbed my head against her neck like a spoiled child, "In order to prevent the baby from ignoring me, I will never let myself get hurt, not even a cut."

I promised seriously, even with some hand movements, a little funny, but the effect was surprisingly good.

Did you regret it later?

A little bit.

Since I entered the police academy, I have less time to spend with her, especially since she is very busy in her profession, and sometimes we may not see each other in a day.

How can I, a love-minded person who clings to my girlfriend, live with this?

In the year before I was about to reach the legal age for marriage, I counted the days on my fingers every day.

I wanted so much to marry the girl I loved to the core, and sometimes I even dreamed about it.

I never suppressed such thoughts, so I became more and more crazy.

My birthday is in October, which is the time when the homeless man picked me up.

As for my background, even if I grew up and had the ability, I didn't look for him.

Maybe I didn't care so much.

And I wanted to find the homeless man, but I couldn't find him.

Sometimes the development of things is quite ironic.

In the early morning of October 26th.

I was sleepless, and neither was she.

As if she had guessed everything, she hooked her arm around my neck and smiled, her voice a little sleepy: "Happy birthday, Xiaobai!"

"Today is the 17th birthday that classmate Shanshan has spent with you."

"I'll grant you a wish, anything is fine."

I didn't answer for a long time.

In the silent night, the sound of my heartbeat overwhelmed all other sounds, vibrating my eardrums.

After a long time, I spoke softly: "Then Shanshan, accompany me to the Civil Affairs Bureau tomorrow."

"Okay."

Without any hesitation.

My breathing stagnated, and when I lowered my eyes, my thin lips were imprinted on her forehead, "I mean, we get the marriage certificate."

I was afraid that she would say something without thinking in her sleepiness.

But I wanted to confirm it, because I would take it seriously.

"I said, OK." She looked up at me, her eyes were clear and her eyebrows were smiling, "I thought you were going to endure it a little longer?"

My heart was filled with joy, and I didn't care about the teasing in her tone.

"I'm just afraid of scaring you."

She smiled and crawled into my arms, her voice sweet: "No."

That day, I didn't sleep until dawn.

After leaving the Civil Affairs Bureau, I took the red book from her hand and said seriously: "I'll keep it, don't lose it."

She didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but she let me do it.

I thought we would continue like this...

But God never lets people get what they want.

To be honest, I have never done anything evil in my life. I have a bad temper, but it's not bad either. I have done a lot of good things, and when I grew up, I became a policeman serving the people.

At least even if I did things that others did not understand, retribution should fall on me...

But the fact is that my Sui Sui died...

Died on the sixth day after we got the marriage certificate.

Caught off guard, without any preparation... in the year when I loved her the most...

It is said that extreme sorrow is without tears, which is half true and half false.

Because when I returned to our home alone and saw the smiling face in the photo on the marriage certificate in my hand, tears fell without warning.

I hurriedly wiped away the tears that had not yet soaked on it with my sleeve, fearing that it would leave marks on it.

Marriage certificate...

Should be happy.

But I am not happy.

I seemed to have lost the ability to be happy.

I was overwhelmed by the huge despair and almost drove me crazy.

I began to lose focus frequently.

I even thought that everything that happened that day was a dream.

I thought that as long as I returned home, the girl who could attract all my attention would fall into my arms with a smile, and then I would bend down to cooperate, and her lips would fall on the corner of my mouth.

Everything was beautiful...

However, the fact is that when I returned home, I faced a cold, suffocating house without her.

No warmth, no her.

I don't believe in Buddhism, but I knelt down every step I took to the temple.

I don't know what the meaning of living is.

I have planned many futures, and she has participated in every one of them. She is gone, and I seem to have lost the fun and expectation of everything.

It was like a compass suddenly entering an unknown magnetic field and losing all directions.

I began to take on difficult tasks, and I longed for death.

But I couldn't commit suicide because Chunshun would be unhappy.

But I don't know if Chunshun knew my thoughts and blessed me, I never died.

Six months after Chunshun left me, the world was sick.

I was sick too.

I couldn't see any hope.

I thought if I died in this environment, Chunshun wouldn't blame me.

So in the chaos, I stabbed the dagger into my heart without hesitation, and before the threat of death in that second had dissipated, I found that I was alive again.

The surroundings were not chaos and destruction, but a warm home.

My Chunshun was still by my side.

Was it a dream?

Maybe?

I don't care anymore.

I cried and hugged her, trying to draw warmth from her.

She reached out and patted my back gently, and said softly: "What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?"

"Yeah." I nodded, "I dreamed that you didn't want me anymore."

"How could that be?" She smiled, "Why would I not want Xiaobai?"

I couldn't say anything else, just shook my head.

In that nightmare, she really didn't want me anymore.

In the next few days, I was panic-stricken, worrying every day that this dream would be broken and I would return to reality.

But this was not a dream.

Sui Sui still left me as things developed.

So after the end of the world came, I chose to commit suicide directly.

Then I saw Sui Sui again.

I arranged everything, but I didn't expect that I still couldn't escape the car accident.

It was like a predetermined fate.

I didn't believe it.

I didn't understand.

Since it wasn't a dream, and since I couldn't change it, what was the point of letting me start over again?

It was like entering a closed loop. I tried desperately to run out of this circle and tried desperately to change everything, but I was still trapped here.

I tried many times, but I couldn't change Sui Sui's fate and ending.

I started over again. I didn't choose to commit suicide at the first time. I tried to live and began to explore the secrets of this world.

Then I encountered a very strange phenomenon.

Someone was deliberately approaching me, as if he wanted to get something from me.

It didn't take me too much time to learn this news.

I don't know what's in that woman's head, so stupid!

She approached me with a purpose, and she claimed that Xiang was my savior? She wanted to make me happy and let me go out...?

I laughed my ass off!

Who said I was going to go out?

After Sui Sui left, I was confined to my own circle, and I was willing to stay in that circle, and no one could get close to me.

I was soberly aware and soberly decadent.

I got a lot of words out of that woman, and I explored some truths of this world.

For example, the fixed plot.

I was so angry that the girl I cared about was paving the way for this so-called absurd plot?

Why?

But with this information, I began to change everything from a different perspective.

Can I change the past now?

In the past, this was simply a fantasy, but now with these strategists and the system... it doesn't necessarily fail.

I tried to send a message to my past self, and I also tried to find my past Siunshun, but I failed once...

It seems that she doesn't exist in my world...

I met the heroine that this world has reserved for me.

To be honest, not only did I not feel happy at all, I also wanted to kill her.

Since Siunshun left, I have become more and more like a bad person. Anyone who sees me will say that I am a sinister and cold-blooded bad person.

I don't think there is anything wrong with this.

My Siunshun is dead, why are these people still alive?

But I knew that person must know more than others, and I had to find out so that the subsequent plan would be easier to carry out.

So every time I approached her, I resisted the urge to kill her.

Fortunately, the result was as I wished.

However, something unexpected happened.

I started to lose my memory...

Along with the memory of Sui Sui, it was lost bit by bit.

I felt it clearly, and I wanted to stop it, but I had no way.

Not only me, but also Cen Xi.

So, I added a chip.

I began to leave various marks for my past self, even if not every one was successful, but as long as one was passed on, my past self would believe it.

Because it was related to Sui Sui, no matter which time period I was in, I would believe it and take certain precautions.

...

Chapter 177 Broke my promise again

Not enough.

These are far from enough.

By chance, I learned that there was a guy named Song Yuanxing in the team, who was in the same school as Sui Sui before the end of the world.

I want to do an experiment.

An experiment about memory.

It turns out that this is not easy to do.

Even at the end, my memory began to become confused.

I couldn't tell whether I was in the past or the future; I couldn't tell whether my current memory was intentionally guided by me or existed in the first place; I couldn't even tell whether Sui Sui next to me was Sui Sui in the past, or Sui Sui who came back after I changed everything...

I felt that I was trapped in some kind of misunderstanding.

I failed many times.

But it was not a complete failure.

At least one of them succeeded.

Every time I reached a certain time node, I would use certain means to send my own phantom to the past, to see Song Yuanxing and my past self...

But it didn't seem to be successful...

Because it never changed now.

I can't remember how many times.

Until the things I experienced began to be inconsistent with my memory.

I met someone who was very similar to Sui Sui.

But I am sure that I have not seen her countless times in the past.

My memory seems to have been tampered with.

Or maybe this is my original memory...

The strategist named Cheng Yuan is not the heroine of this world.

But it's strange that this Jiang Wennian doesn't have a system...

A little disappointed.

In this way, I can't find other useful information.

The time when I lost my memory the most, I forgot everything, and only the vague figure in my mind reminded me of what happened.

Fortunately, this situation does not happen often, otherwise I would probably go crazy.

Later, I got enough news.

I need to see someone.

Someone who controls everything.

To be honest, I didn't know at first that my death caused the whole world to revisit. I thought that only my life had been trapped here, constantly repeating...

But this is not a bad thing for me.

Because I can use this to achieve my goal.

It was easier to meet that person than I thought, as if he knew what I was thinking and came to see me specially.

The magnificent palace was built with precious jades everywhere. The surrounding environment was as beautiful as a painting, with fine mists, unknown flowers swaying in the wind, and mottled shadows of trees.

On the high throne, a beautiful woman was leaning lazily. She was wearing a lavender brocade robe, and her three thousand black hair was tied up by a hairband of the same color, some of which fell on her shoulders.

She looked down at me, her eyes were arrogant, her eyebrows were arrogant and unruly, with the indifference and coldness of seeing through the world.

I looked at her from a distance, my eyes were sour, and I wanted to cry for no reason.

The figure that had always been vague in my mind but made me miss her sick finally had a face. At that moment, I seemed to see Sui Sui.

I knew that this person was not her, but I still wanted to take a few more glances and want to deeply imprint this face in my mind.

"You took great pains to come to see me... but you don't say anything?" A lazy tone floated slowly from the seat of honor.

"I thought you would know." I didn't know what tone to use to talk to this face.

"Since you've come here and seen me, you should understand."

"I don't understand." I shook my head, "I don't understand why she must die?"

"Death?" She sneered, her slender white fingers bent and rested on her chin, "It's death for you, but not for her."

"She is a trace of my consciousness. According to the original development of things, she should disappear quietly..."

Silently... disappear?

My eyes turned cold in an instant, and the hands hanging by my side kept clenching, and I pursed my lips tightly without saying a word.

After a long while, I took a deep breath, suppressed the anger in my heart, and said in a calm voice: "How to make her come back?"

"She is like this now, that's when she really comes back." She seemed to have heard a joke, so she said with a hint of impatience, "I am really free, otherwise why would I spend so much time to see you?"

"If I keep dying, I will keep seeing her, right?"

She narrowed her eyes and glanced at me lightly.

I am familiar with that look.

It's very similar to the look I had when I looked at that unreasonable person...impatient, wanting to kill him.

"Do you want to let this world develop?"

"Are you mistaken?" The person snorted, and touched a flower of unknown species next to her with her beautiful fingertips, and said nonchalantly, "The development of that world has nothing to do with me."

I thought a lot, but I couldn't find any equivalent conditions that would make her give in.

I couldn't help but feel a little frustrated.

"Then, how about a bet?"

Even if I knew, I still couldn't do it.

I couldn't just give up like that.

I've worked so hard for so long, I don't want to get nothing, but push the development of things to zero.

"Oh?" The man raised his eyebrows, as if he was a little interested, "Tell me about it."

"Every time you come back, you make the choice for her. Why don't you let her choose once?"

The man sat high on the throne, supporting his face with his hands, and a playful smile appeared at the corner of his mouth: "Interesting."

"But you are not qualified to bet with me."

"Why don't we play a game?"

"If she comes back voluntarily, you lose, and she comes back and you live; if she doesn't come back, you win, and she stays and you die."

No matter how you choose in this gamble, the result will not be satisfactory.

But this is the biggest concession I have gotten.

How can a mortal body compare to a god.

I lowered my eyes, suppressed all the emotions in my eyes, and made a decision when I raised my eyes: "Okay."

To be honest, my desire to win is quite strong.

I don't like failure, and even hate the feeling of failure.

But this time, I want to lose.

I want to lose completely, without the slightest possibility of recovery.

The man looked at me in surprise, and continued to tease the bunch of beautiful flowers and plants with his hand, saying slowly: "It's not a good day today, don't stay here all the time, go out and experience some more."

The flower was startled in a humane way, and anxiously rubbed the man's fingers.

"No room for negotiation, go ahead."

The voice in my ears became weaker and weaker, and my eyes began to darken.

I heard the man's voice coming slowly: "You and her, I am surprised... I really look forward to your choice..."

Before my consciousness completely disappeared, I felt the memories in my mind being cleared bit by bit, gradually regressing to a timeline where nothing happened.

I just don't know if it is the law of the world that cannot be changed? Or is it that person who did it...?

However, I am more inclined to the former.

That kind of person should not disdain to use such means...

When I woke up again, I was in the kitchen.

I was wearing a pink Hello Kitty apron, holding a kitchen knife in my hand, and the pumpkin porridge that I loved to drink was still cooking in the pot...

I was stunned for a moment, and my expression was dazed for a moment.

I remember that today was the second day after Sui Sui and I got married, and I was making a loving breakfast...

But——

I looked out the window, frowning.

I always felt that I seemed to have forgotten something.

But the distraction was short-lived, and I quickly put my thoughts aside and continued with my hands.

No matter what I forgot, put it aside for now. The most important thing now is to make breakfast for my dear wife and not let her go hungry.

...

I recovered all my memories again after Sui Sui said she wanted to see the flowers.

I sat by the window, quietly watching the snowflakes floating outside the window, my heart full of sadness.

In fact, I hoped that she could be more selfish, so that she could survive.

But she didn't.

Won...did she?

I pulled the corners of my mouth, but I couldn't force out a smile.

So, even if I win, I will be so sad...

A huge feeling of powerlessness overwhelmed me like a tide, and I felt cold all over, as if I fell into an ice cave.

Why?

Why did I make so many efforts, but the result was still not what I wanted?

A familiar force came, madly pulling all the memories of Sui Sui in my mind...

My eyes were instantly red, and I wanted to leave something behind at all costs.

I picked up the short knife we made together on the table and stabbed it into the palm of my left hand without hesitation.

It tried to make me forget, but I didn't let it do that.

The intense pain made my numb brain briefly sober. I could vaguely see the marks I carved on my bloody palms, and the handmade knife fell to the ground with a "thump".

I fell on the carpet, my bloodstained hands drooped powerlessly, my vision became blurred, and the red was particularly dazzling.

The snowflakes drifting in from the window hit my face and brought a hint of coolness.

The words of Sui Sui came to my ears at an inappropriate time.

She said: "Xiao Bai, if one day the memory of me is forcibly erased, don't resist it."

For the first time, I didn't want to listen to her words...

But——

I closed my eyes, and tears silently slid down the corners of my eyes.

How could I refuse her wish?

She wants me to be well, so I will be well; she wants me to forget, so... I will forget.

But you broke your promise to accompany me day and night, year after year.

You also broke your promise to accompany me to live a hundred years.

I hate you so much, but I also... love you the most.

Chapter 178 God's Self-narration

I am God, the only God in the world.

I was born when the sky and the earth were dark, the sun and the moon could not be distinguished, and I was the only one in the world that stretched as far as the eye could see.

I can't tell how many years I have spent. Time is the most useless thing for me.

Later, the sky was sunny and rainy, the sun and the moon changed, and there were many more creatures in the world.

I picked up Tuanzi on the roadside when I was free. At that time, it was lying on the ground dying. I saved it and gave it a place to live.

But this decision killed my free time.

Maybe it was too boring, I was asleep most of the time.

Tuanzi often went out, and every time he came back, he told me the stories he heard in the human world and what he saw and heard.

He also gave himself a name, Tuntun.

I smiled and poked it with my finger, "Do you mean you eat too much?"

It angrily bumped my finger with its chubby body, and was in a good mood for no reason.

However, the notebook that Tuanzi brought made me think. Every time before falling asleep, I split a few strands of consciousness and scattered them to various small worlds, experiencing the so-called birth, old age, sickness and death, and the fireworks of joy and sorrow in the world.

I don't want to interfere with human life, so every scattered consciousness will lose all my memory and divine power.

Those so-called emotions are naturally not within the scope of my thinking. I just want to experience some interesting things to kill time, but I don't want to go out and talk about a more boring love.

Everything was normal. When I woke up, my consciousness returned, and with it came the memories of what I had experienced.

Theoretically, there would be no accidents if things continued in this direction...

But this unexpected thing actually happened? !

My consciousness was different, and I was forced to wake up from my sleep.

This is actually a very rare problem, but I don't have much interest in exploring such boring things. I successfully took back my consciousness and continued to sleep.

But things were so strange that the consciousness left again, and I didn't even notice it at the first time.

This incident was a fuse that aroused my interest.

When I saw what happened, I looked a little surprised.

That human being is quite capable...

But I would rather be bored than interfere with the lives of other humans.

Everything in the world has its own constraints and rules.

I am too lazy to deal with the troubles that may arise later.

That world is in a transitional stage. As long as I interfere a little and do not affect the original ending, there will be no problem in theory.

I thought about it and came up with a script for that consciousness.

It is thanks to Tuanzi, otherwise I would not be able to come up with such a bloody plot even if I racked my brains.

Human beings?

I have seen a lot of them in the endless years.

It is nothing but greed, fame, fortune, and wealth.

As for the result...

Is it a success?

It doesn't seem to be.

That human is too persistent.

To be honest, this is the first time I have seen such a capable and talented human. He is very smart and good at catching any loopholes.

But how can he be sure that I will not let him die?

Even if I give him an identity and some privileges, I still have to spend some time to deal with those unnecessary troubles every time the world is retraced.

Moreover, if there is no consciousness of my seat, how can the world have the energy to retrace?

He is really an ant-like person, who actually wants to shake the big tree.

But since the heroine I designated has been discovered by him, let's change her.

Speaking of which, I am quite curious about how far he can go?

After reading to the end, I had some doubts in my heart.

Is there really someone in the small world who insists on doing something that he knows is impossible?

Even if he doesn't remember anything in the end...

Interesting.

I curled my lips and smiled slowly.

It's really interesting.

It's much more interesting than those storybooks and those brought back by the spirits in the past.

I know he wants to see me.

It's simple, I will make him happy.

It's very strange.

I thought that the first time he saw me, he would immediately let my spirit come out and reunite with him.

After all, all his efforts were nothing more than this.

But it didn't.

That person just looked at me quietly, as if he was looking at another person through me, and then his eyes became red.

A little irritated.

I don't know if the emotion of that consciousness is too strong, but my calm heart was stirred and rippled.

Oh, just a consciousness, how dare you want to control me.

I couldn't wait to see him, so I resisted the urge to kick him back and said, "You took so much trouble to come to see me... but you don't say anything?"

"I thought you would know."

His tone was calm, neither humble nor arrogant.

"Since you are here and have seen me, you should understand." I leaned on the throne casually and glanced at the people in the palace.

"I don't understand." He shook his head, his eyes full of obsession, "I don't understand why she must die?"

"Death?" I sneered, my slender white fingers bent and rested on my chin, "It's death for you, but not for her."

"She is a trace of my consciousness. According to the original development of things, she should disappear quietly."

This is in line with the original development.

Then there was silence.

My impatience became heavier.

"How to make her come back?"

"She is now like this, that's when she really comes back." My patience completely disappeared, "I am really free, otherwise why would I spend so much time to see you?"

"If I keep dying, I will keep seeing her, right?"

He continued, trying to find something to change my mind.

"Do you want to let the world develop?"

I glanced at him lightly, wondering whether I should kill him now and put an end to it.

I don't want to change the fate of mankind, but killing a person quietly is as simple as it can be.

And the trouble it brings is not difficult to deal with.

"Are you mistaken?" I leaned to the side and pointed my finger at the pot of flowers next to me. "The development of that world has nothing to do with me."

"Then, how about a bet?"

"Oh?"

I smiled.

Have I been asleep for too long?

How dare someone bet with me?

You should know that the last immortal who bet with me lost his chance of reincarnation.

I was born ruthless and do things based on my mood.

Even if there are living things in the world later, few dare to approach me, especially those who want to teach me some social skills...Don't say few, there is no one.

I am strong enough. Even if I do something incomprehensible, those people dare not say a word of opposition, but only tremble and flatter me...

"Tell me about it."

"Every time you come back, you make the choice for her. Why don't you let her choose once?"

"Interesting."

"But why do you think I will make such a big fuss over such a small matter?" I leaned my head to the side, "As long as I want, I will have many solutions."

"You don't want to interfere with the original direction of the world, right?"

Questioning words, affirmative tone.

"I have died so many times, but I am still standing in front of you safe and sound. It must be you who did it..."

"Tsk."

I raised my eyelids carelessly, and his body suddenly flew backwards and hit the pillar not far away.

"You will die." There was no emotion in my eyes, but a playful smile appeared at the corner of my mouth, "Aren't you afraid?"

"I want to see her." He said word by word.

I didn't say anything, but looked at him with interest.

"Please..."

The proud ant in that world finally succumbed to love.

He stood up and wiped the blood from his mouth.

Inexplicably stubborn...

But where did he get the confidence to think that he could accomplish what he wanted by meeting me?

If I wasn't bored, he might have died, and might have been lost in the chaotic time and space. Why would I let him waste my time here?

He pursed his lips, and a sadness that I didn't understand emanated from him.

"What a strange ant, in that world, you can clearly become the strongest, and even have everything you want..."

"I only want her." He insisted stubbornly, "I don't want anything else except her."

Interesting.

"You are not qualified to bet with me."

"Why not play a game?"

"If she comes back voluntarily, you lose, and she comes back and you live; if she doesn't come back, you win, and she stays and you die."

He agreed quickly: "Okay."

I looked at him, and my hand continued to tease the bunch of beautiful flowers and plants, and my voice was slow: "Today's weather is not good, don't stay here all the time, go out and experience it."

The flower was startled in a humane way, and anxiously rubbed my fingers.

"No discussion, go."

Staying in the palace all day is not a big deal.

I waved my hand casually and sent the person back to the original world. "You and her, I am surprised... I really look forward to your choice..."

The palace returned to silence, as if everything just now was just an illusion.

Hua Xiaoyou was still rubbing, and her voice, which had just learned to speak, continued intermittently: "I don't... want to go... stay... by your side..."

"Let Tuanzi and Jingchen accompany you then."

This sentence made her deflated, and her stretched leaves drooped, "Okay."

...

Speaking of which, I helped them a lot.

Let that consciousness know a lot in advance, and even put Tuanzi, Hua Xiaoyou, and Jingchen by her side,

Let her easily reach a height that others can't reach in their lifetime.

I gave them a lot of hints, except for some unnecessary ones. For example, the memory of that human is the price of retracing the world, and I will naturally not interfere.

For the rest, I gave everything I could.

I even let her have some more human ties in that world.

What I didn't expect was that the consciousness returned in the end.

As for whether it was voluntary or forced?

Anyway, it was her choice, and I took it as voluntary.

I saw Tuanzi, Hua Xiaoyou and Jingchen again when everything was settled.

Normally, the three of them would make the scene lively whenever they were together, but now they looked at each other and looked at me anxiously.

"Sister." Jing Chen was the first to speak, "She...?"

"Did you show feelings?"

Jing Chen paused, "I just think she is different from my usual sister..."

"What's the difference?" I glanced at him with interest, "They are the same personality in their bones, but they are different in the way they show it to you."

Jing Chen opened his mouth and said nothing.

"Forget it." I waved my hand, "If you have nothing else, I'll go to sleep."

These endless years will eventually become boring.

Chapter 179 Back to Normal

The snow lasted for a long time.

At first, people celebrated and were excited, thinking that new hope had arrived. Later, the snow fell heavier and heavier, the sky and the earth were white, and thick snow piled up. When they went out, it was windy and snowy, and people's excitement was gradually replaced by worries.

People speculated whether this was a new disaster.

Later, the heavy snow submerged everything, the zombies were buried, and the mutants disappeared...

Later, the survivors fell into a deep sleep without warning.

The whole world seemed to be asleep, quiet and weird.

After an unknown period of time, the fluttering snowflakes gradually stopped.

At that time, the sky and the earth were white, and everything was quiet.

Without the alternation of the sun and the moon, and without the running clock, the concept of time becomes relatively vague.

Until, there is a faint golden flash on the horizon, and the hazy light spreads on the pure white snow, reflecting colorful colors; the second hand of the still clock vibrates slightly, and then slowly makes a turning sound; the accumulated snow begins to melt...

It's like waking up.

Green buds gradually appeared on the trees, and the snow melted very quickly. In just half a day, the wet ground appeared...

This time, it was no longer a ruin, nor was it an endless desert full of solidified black and red liquid, nor was there a pungent smell...

Except for some high-rise buildings that were particularly damaged, the rest were all brand new.

It was like... welcoming spring.

The people who woke up walked out of the building in the first rays of sunlight, feeling the warmth brought by the sunlight, first stretched their waists comfortably, and then looked around blankly.

"I... seem to have had a nightmare."

This sentence seemed to turn on a switch, and everyone talked about it.

"I dreamed about the end of the world, zombies were coming..." The man couldn't help shaking.

"Me too."

"Don't say it, it was like the real thing, I was so scared that I don't dare to recall the details until now."

"Did you all dream together?"

"It can't be true, right?"

"If it is true, does it mean that the end of the world is over and we have won!"

The word "victory" is exciting and passionate enough.

Everyone was delighted and excited.

Although they didn't know why they suddenly won.

Before they finished cheering, several military off-road vehicles came into their sight.

The off-road vehicles stopped, and the people in the cars were all in uniform, with straight postures and tall figures. The leader was an old man in his fifties, dressed in military green, looking energetic and with sparkling eyes.

He smiled sweetly, but his words were extremely intimidating.

"Hello, fellow survivors."

"My last name is Wei, and I am sent by the country."

"I believe everyone has a general understanding of the situation. As you said, this war--"

He paused, and as everyone waited with bated breath, he slowly added the rest of the words: "We won!"

"You are all heroes of the country."

After he finished speaking, there was another round of cheers.

When they calmed down a little, Mr. Wei raised his hand and pressed it down, saying in a sonorous and powerful voice: "However, because of this disaster, the old order has collapsed, and the new order has not yet been established, so we will not only rely on us, but also need the help of you and everyone present."

"If you are willing, you can go to Dongzhou with us to discuss future matters. At that time, the country will definitely remember your contribution. . "

"If you want to stay here, we won't force you, but we may not be able to take care of you when the time comes..."

"Go! I'll sign up!"

"Follow the country, it won't be a loss!"

"Add me!"

"..."

If it were something else, maybe they would have to think about it again, but for this matter, as long as they can think, they will definitely not refuse.

All benefits and no harm.

Seeing this, Mr. Wei smiled and gestured to the adjutant beside him.

The adjutant took the order: "Don't worry, come here one by one to register."

There are many survivors in District 7. Everyone spread the word, and more and more people came.

Mr. Wei's eyes fell on a place, squinted his eyes, and finally walked over.

Someone wanted to follow him, but he waved his hand and refused: "I'll go by myself, you guys maintain order here."

"Yes."

The villa is not far from here. After about ten minutes, Master Wei arrived at the door of the villa and happened to meet Sheng Tianming and Song Yuanxing who came out to inquire about the news.

"Excuse me, is Xie Yubai here?"

"Is the country here to pick us up?"

Two voices rang out at the same time.

Master Wei was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said: "Of course, the country will not abandon any of its people."

Sheng Tianming shook his head and pointed to him: "Are you looking for the boss? I just saw the boss go to the backyard, right there."

**

Backyard of the villa.

Various bright flowers swayed in the wind, and the spring breeze blew gently, with a refreshing fragrance of flowers.

A tall, dark figure was embraced in the flowers, and the wind blew the corners of his clothes, raising a beautiful arc in the air, and blowing the hair covering his eyebrows slightly.

His eyes were empty, and he didn't know what he was thinking. Then he lowered his eyes and looked at the scar on his palm.

He stroked it gently twice, and his heart ached inexplicably.

"Years... what?"

The softly whispered words were blown away in the air by the wind.

He pressed his hand on his chest, "It's so strange, why do I... miss you? Why do I... feel heartache?"

Did he forget something?

The fingers hanging down his legs rubbed the palm of his hand, feeling the marks on it, his expression was gloomy.

He was a special police officer, so he only needed to touch it to guess how much effort he had used at that time...

If he really forgot, who was that person?

A vague figure flashed in his mind. The person stood with his back to the sun, and his face without facial features could vaguely be seen smiling, and then waved at him...

There was a sharp pain in his mind, and he covered his head, blurting out the name.

"Sui Sui..."

After he finished speaking, he froze.

Sui Sui?

Who is Sui Sui?

His eyes flashed with a moment of confusion. Perhaps he was too engrossed in thinking, and he didn't even notice someone approaching.

"Xie boy, are you looking at the flowers here? Or are you in a daze? Why are you so unalert?"

Xie Yubai suddenly came back to his senses.

"Mr. Wei, why are you here?"

Mr. Wei: "Look at what you said, are you still playing dumb with me?"

Xie Yubai suppressed the emotion in his eyes, curved his thin red lips, and smiled: "I was in a daze, and now you have come to see me in person."

Mr. Wei smiled helplessly: "Okay, stop fooling around here, do you want to come with us?"

"Mr. Wei has already spoken, how can I refuse?"

The early morning sunlight poured down, and the soft light danced on the man's eyebrows, giving him a layer of light, and the high spirits between his eyebrows became even more.

"If you're serious, do you want to return to work?"

Xie Yubai paused, and rubbed his chin with his slender fingers: "Mr. Wei, I may have missed a part of my memory. Why did I resign?"

"You said it was for personal reasons at the beginning, and I don't know the details." Mr. Wei shook his head, "Besides, your resignation application was not handed over to me."

"Is that so..." Xie Yubai nodded in understanding, "Then have you seen a person named "Sui Sui" around me?"

"Sui Sui...? I don't remember." Mr. Wei thought carefully, "It sounds like a girl's name. When did you have a close girl around you?"

"It's okay, maybe my memory is confused and I remembered it wrong. "Xie Yubai pressed his forehead and didn't continue the topic, "By the way, Mr. Wei, when are we leaving?"

"We'll leave today."

Chapter 180 Maybe it is true

It took a long time to establish the new order, about a year in total.

As for this nightmare-like disaster, it was really like a dream.

It started suddenly and ended suddenly.

If there is any change...? Except that the surrounding environment is slightly better than before, there is no other change.

One year is enough for this society, which is not incomplete after the heavy snow, to be completely renewed.

Flower market, police station.

"Hey, I heard someone was transferred here today, but I don't know who he is? He seems to have a strong background, and even the higher-ups called me."

The older policeman shook his head while holding a glass filled with mist: "Sometimes it's not necessarily about background, strength is also a part."

"Chen Tou, do you know something about him?"

The policeman named "Chen Tou" took a sip of tea: "I don't know much about him, but I heard that this person was the one that Lian Wei failed to recruit."

"Wei Lao?"

It's rest time now, and since everything is peaceful recently, there's nothing to do, so many people are here.

"Isn't Mr. Wei a military man?"

Chentou glanced at the people who were watching with displeasure: "Who doesn't want a talented young man? Unlike you, who are lazy all day long."

"Chentou, what you said is wrong. What if that person is about your age?"

Chentou: "..."

The person who was speaking was touched by the elbow of the person next to him. The person reacted instantly and changed his words to save himself: "I made a mistake and I should be punished. Chentou is still young."

Chentou: "..."

To cover up one's mistake?

He took a deep breath and drank a sip of tea to calm down the anger in his heart. Before he could say anything, he heard a low and magnetic voice behind him: "Hello, how can I get to the office of the Forest Bureau?"

This sentence attracted everyone's attention.

Standing in the backlight of the door was a man in a black overalls. The man was very young, about 25 years old, with sharp eyebrows and starry eyes. His fox eyes were sparkling with indescribable tenderness, but there was a careless smile in his eyes, and the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, casual and ruffian.

He was tall and straight, with broad shoulders and narrow waist, and his temperament was reserved and lazy.

Everyone was stunned for a moment, and then a deep voice came: "Captain Xie, I have heard of you for a long time."

Xie Yubai turned his head and chuckled: "Director Lin, you are too polite."

Director Lin smiled but said nothing.

The real situation is probably only known to him now.

Before this person came to the flower market, the military and the higher-ups had specifically explained that although they said "don't give him special treatment, do this and that", he was not stupid, and before this person came, he maliciously added some information about Xie Yubai.

You don't know until you see it, and you will be shocked when you see it.

Some big data are protected by the country, so even after experiencing the end of the world, they have not been destroyed too much, so in today's Internet-developed society, what can't be found?

Except for those deliberately protected information.

It is better not to offend this big Buddha.

Director Lin felt a headache at first, because in his opinion, Xie Yubai was absolutely powerful, but people with power tend to have strange tempers.

In this regard, he specifically called Wei Laohe's superiors to ask about matters that need attention.

And the people there seemed to be much more casual about this: "Director Lin, you don't have to care. Although he is sometimes very arrogant, as long as you don't provoke him, he is still very polite to others."

Director Lin: "..."

Ting Jun's words, still a speech.

Later, this situation lasted for half a month, and Director Lin completely changed his view of Xie Yubai.

His strength is absolutely unquestionable. He solves every case as quickly as possible and almost perfectly.

As for his temper...

So far, he has never seen Xie Yubai being cold to anyone or losing his temper.

Sometimes he smiles lazily, and sometimes he looks listless, as if no one can arouse his emotions.

The people in the police station are almost on the same page with him, and someone can't help but ask out of curiosity: "Captain Xie, why did you come to the flower market? Is it because you have a hometown complex?"

It happened that Director Lin came to get some water. Hearing this, he stopped and drank slowly, tilting his ear to listen.

He was the only one in the police station who knew Xie Yubai's previous position, so he was really curious. Why did he give up his job as a special police officer and come to work as a police officer in the flower market...

Then he heard an answer that was not really an answer. The man laughed: "Homesickness...? Yes, there is always a special feeling for this land, and--"

He paused, his deep eyebrows and eyes jumped with some unpredictable emotions: "I remember someone told me not to get hurt, otherwise she would ignore me."

"The danger here is not as high as before."

Xie Yubai lowered his eyes and rubbed his palm with the fingertips of his left hand. The marks there were still there. Every time he looked at it and touched it, he would feel heartbroken and nostalgic.

"Is that the girl that Captain Xie likes?" The young female police officer's eyes were bright.

As soon as she said this, someone objected: "I don't think so. What kind of girl can make our Captain Xie so obedient?"

"That makes sense. It seems that Captain Xie has a temper that no one can tame or control."

In their opinion, there is no one who can make Xie Yubai bow his head.

The female police officer who was refuted pouted: "Captain Xie didn't refute it, why are you so excited?"

"Captain Xie, you tell me."

In the past half month, Xie Yubai's excellent ability, outstanding temperament and appearance have won him a group of little fans.

Of course, there are some who are interested...

But Xie Yubai has a strong sense of boundaries. No one has ever been attentive to him, and no one dares to keep showing off in front of him...

He is polite enough to others, but also distant enough.

Xie Yubai, who instantly became the focus of the whole audience, leaned back on the chair like a boneless person. His superior bone structure was extremely good. His drooping eyelids were lifted, revealing the light in his eyes. He said in a loose tone: "Maybe it is true."

Even if he didn't remember anything, he believed that he must be waiting for someone to appear.

And that person must be the existence that he could never give up in his heart.

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