Living at the Club house was bringing up Bad Memories. My Dad, Pop and Nan's Youngest son, got involved with one the Club Girls. I never understood how these Girls knew the Bikers were Married or had an Ole Lady but went after them anyway. Don't get me Wrong, It's the Bikers decision to cross that line, and to Me they are the major contributor to the break-up. The Arguments were awful, Mom Bringing up the Girls he was with, Him stating she Grew up in Biker Club and Knew how the Biker Life style was. It finally got too much for Mom and She took Me and Ran While Dad Was on one of the Biker Runs. I hated it. I always wondered if Pop did that to Nan. He always seemed to Worship Ground she walked on.

Mom always liked Bikers, We would move around to a different club area, it was always a revolving Door to her Boyfriends. Some of them were Nice, Some flat Ignored me, and Some I wish would have. These Men always tried catch me alone, While Mom was in the shower, outside hanging clothes on the line to dry, or just drove to the store. Mom always blamed me when the touchy feely ones tried something with me, She told me it was my Fault, I shouldn't wear Provocative clothes. Hell at the time I didnt even know what that meant. When I was about 13 , Mom walked in on her Latest man Trying to get My Pants off. She started Yelling , Hitting him , trying to drag him off of me. Damn Man told Mom I asked for it, He said that I told him I would be better than Mom. Hell how could a kid know what they are doing at that age.

Thats when I started spending Summers with Pop and Nan. I never told anyone what happened but Nan knew something was Wrong. I would Run and Hide when Men were around, I would shrink in on Myself when Pop tried to hug Me. I had horrible Nightmares, would wake up screaming bloody murder, Trying to run out of the House. After a month of this happening, Nan called Dad, Wanted to know what the Hell had Happened to her Happy, Sweet girl. I had never run from Pop before. Dad stated he didnt know. Nan finally tried several different types of Therapy. Horse Therapy seemed to help the most. I became a Great Rider, I loved taking care of the horses, I even Enjoyed Mucking the stalls.

Due to the Positive Changes that were happening in Me, Pop decided to build a Barn, put up fencing, and get a few horses. He said If I couldn't dig down deep in my Memories to talk to Humans about it, and Working with the Animals Brought his Happy Little Girl Back, then that was what was going to happen. I communicated with the Horses. We all cried when I ran, Jumped in Pop's Arms, Thanking him for what he did. When Dad called Mom asking what was going on when I was at her house, She told him Not a Damn thing and not to Question again how she was raising "HER DAUGHTER". Especially since he couldn't keep his Cock in his pants. It just became another thing for them to fight about. But she did send me to Boarding school to keep me from her Boyfriends. Which was fine with me, I missed Being with Nan and Pop, working with the horses, spending some time with Mom that wasn't taken up by her Boyfriend. This also killed my self-esteem. How was anyone supposed to love me when my own mother didnt love me.

Mom got into Drugs thanks to one of Her Boyfriends and suffered several overdoses until she wasnt found in time after I graduated High School. Dad is still in a Biker Club some where , still going from one Club Girl to the another. Nan always said it's a blessing he "GOT' fixed after I was born. Think he was afraid of another slip up. Yes , I was one of those someone poked hole in the Condom Baby's.

Staring at the Ceiling, I decided since I couldn't go back to sleep I would just get up. It was only 5:00 and the Guys would be getting up soon any way. after a shower, brushing my teeth. I threw on pair jeans, Hoodie, and Cowboy boots and headed to the Kitchen. I pulled my hair up, and pulled on a Hair net. never want your hair in someone's food My Old boss once told me. Dragging out flour, milk, butter, and Lard I started mixing up bisquits. I didnt know how many would be eating, thinking maybe 200 Bisquit , I could fix a dozen at a time, and what wasn't cooked I would wrap them up and Freeze them. I took out 2 packs of Bacon,and a pack of sausage got them going. I mixed up 3 dozen eggs, added cheese to scramble them. put hash browns on. I had turned one of the ovens on very low, as a warmer. I had just finished taking a pan of Bisquits out and putting another one in when I felt someone behind me. I swirled around, grabbed a knife and faced a Biker. A very Handsome Biker. He threw his Hands up, stated Whoa Darling didn't mean to scare you, just following the delicious smell. It was the Tall Dark eyed Biker who handed me the Kleenex and Squeezed my hand first night I came here.

Told him I was Sorry, I wasn't usually this jumpy, I stuck My Hand out told Him I was Keta, I was Seth's Cousin. Yeah I'm an idiot you already know that. Laughing he Shook My hand said He was Jace but everyone called him Eagle at the Club. then asked if I wanted some Help. Sure, Do you mind starting the Coffee. When Eggs were Done I placed Plates, Silver wear, and Napkins on the table. I pointed to everything stated help yourself. As I started cleaning up what I cooked with.

One the Club Girls came over wrapped her arms around Jace as she looked up and Purred I had Great time last Night , but you were gone this Morning when I woke up. He gave her a funny look . She turns to me and Asks are you a New Girl. I smiled, said I was Seth's Cousin, Keta and stuck my hand out to shake hands. She gave me a funny look , turned and walked off. I heard Jace say something to her about her being Rude, and What the Hell she meant by I was with her last night.

I turned looked as more Bikers started following the smells of food as the said. I placed all the platters of food out, told them to help themselves. Seth came in pulled me into a tight hug, asked how I was. I'm slowly moving but I'm moving. I noticed a few more Club Girls walking by all wore short shorts, low tank tops. they were giving me looks. One even said in low Voice- Don't get too Comfortable with the Guys, They are all Taken. I looked up at Seth, Cocked an Eyebrow at him pointed at the Girls. He turned to say something to them, but I held my hand up, walked over to her. I asked what her name was , she Just gave me her Bitch look. Now I haven't had my Caffeine yet, and this Bitch seemed to be spoiling for a fight. I had been getting their Bitch looks for the last week, and I was fed up with it. I looked at her and asked her name again. This time she smirked at me, said what does it matter. You won't be here long enough to remember it. Seth started to walk over, But I threw my Right Fist into her Face. she screamed as she hit the floor holding her nose. I looked at the Other Girls said Anyone Else wanna go ? I have been getting Bitchy looks from you all week. If you have a problem with me Pull up your Big Girl Panties and come to me. Stop your Petty Bitch attitude and act like a Lady. No Sweetheart, I'm not a Lady, I'm what you Call a F--king Redneck. I dont give shit if you like me or not. Mouthy there on the floor for your information Seth is My Cousin, Pop and Nan are My Grandparents and You can Bet Your Sweet ass I'll be here longer than any of You. I know type Girls you are, and that's YOur business what you do. I was not looking down on you but if you keep this attitude up We will have Problems. By the Way- Didn't know you were taken Seth, as I turned to himand Kinda shoved him with a laugh. shoving me back he says Asshole I'm not. Laughing as we grab a plate and sat at the table.

oh, shit, shit, shit I say jumping up and running back to the kitchen as my timer went off. I grabbed another pan bisquits out put another pan in and set timer again. When I headed back to the table I looked at the Girls and told them theres plenty of food, I didn't poison it, Yet with a wink. I put my hat on after taking the hair net off.

Pop and Nan walk in, sniffing the air, Pop smiles and says Pam Our girl still cooks like You. I just laugh and say of Course who think taught me. More Bikers stroll in grabbing plates , when Someone states, Man you really taking the last bisquit, I stand up bout time timer goes off. I grab pan out, then ask are there anymore coming in. So I know put another pan in oven or get others ready to go in the freezer. Guys yelled out , put them in the oven we will eat them. Shaking my head I laugh. I grab a few plates , walk over to the Girls and hand them to them telling them you may want to get some before these guys eat it all.

I start cleaning up the Dishes, covering food that is left so I can put in the over to keep warm for ones who havent eaten yet. As I'm filling the sink with soapy water , Bambi one the Club Girls comes over and asks if I need help. Sure I say, between the both of us it doesnt take long to clean. as We're wiping down the counter tops, picnic tables, Bambi states I'm really sorry we got off on the wrong foot. I'ts just we're used to cooking and cleaning When We came in you were doing it all. We thought you were taking over.

Look I'm just helping out. There were some problems back home, Seth is afraid they will come looking for me. I'm an ER Nurse, but with everything going down , Pop won't let me leave here. I can't just sit around and do nothing. I'm only here to help. I'm really sorry Bambi says again, I walk over give her a big hug, state I'm Keta. good to meet ya. She looks at me, states just a heads up, some of the others are very jealous of the relationship you have with the Guys. Especially Prez. I give her a squeeze told her he is Family, there is nothing sexual. Thank God, thats just EWWE, He's my First Cousin. We both laugh and walk out.

I walk outside the Clubhouse, and drop to my knees in the flower garden. start pulling weeds, another thing thank Nan for. I think. Hearing boots behind me , I turn look up into the Beautiful Whiskey colored Eyes. He squats down beside me states, Thanks for Breakfast it was Fabulous . I look at him and Laugh at him , moving to sit on my butt. Looking over at him I ask am I going to get you in trouble by talking to you. Seems the Girls are very protective of their guys. I just told Bambi that me having anything going on with Seth is just Gross.. We both Laugh. He then tells me, No He doesnt belong to anyone. He has this sad look in his eyes. They show the look of someone thats been through a lot of Heart Break. I touch his arm , tell him if He wants to talk I'm good listener and I don't repeat. He pulls my hair, says thanks sweetheart. But some Demons can't be let out. I watch him walking away. Thinking what has he gone through.