A/n: This chapter will be confusing, but it will be explained later.

Somehow as we continued to talk my mind started to hurt and my thoughts became more scattered as the day went on.

The walk home was a blank, or something.

I don't remember talking to her, I don't know why. I tried to ask, but my mind was just blank when we went home.

She told me something, but it never registered.

She was so nice but I just had a bad feeling of something, so I was gonna ask her to go home.

"Rain, maybe we can go home now I'm not feeling good all of a sudden" I said as I looked at her, her eyes started to glimmer.

What is that.

I'm scared why was it like something was inside her.

That thing I saw was her, wasn't it. Did she want me to say that?

Her eyes seemed to get darker, she started to get closer.

I tried to stop but my body was moving without my consent, did she want me to get closer too?

As she put her head to my heart it was like she was trying to get something, what are you? Are you even a human.

What did those couple look like was that what she wanted?

"Y/N" she said, I swear her eyes were like there was something in there. "you are always so hot and bothered, that's what I love about you."

I was confused, scared, and wanted to cry, what was I doing, what were we doing.

This was not what I wanted I wish there was someone here to save me.

Did I say that.

I was so confused I wanted to throw up.

I needed a drink of water or something the world was a mess.

My, thoughts, were, weird.

I kept replaying the events of the afternoon, trying to find a reason to why she was like this.

I was starting to make reasons, was that me? Did I do something? Am I hurting her by thinking about leaving?

What was I doing.

Was this all real.

Did any of that do anything if it didn't come out of my heart or something.

No way she knew more than I did. I am gonna die if this is the case.

I wanted to run but I would do anything I could.

Was this really a choice.

How should I proceed here how will I feel if something happens. It was not possible the weight was not on my shoulders so what was going to happen.

When we got to my house she was talking to my mother and everything.

She talked about our lives.

We were already doing this I was gonna die.

I'm so scared Idon'twannafeelthisIdon'twannafeelthis.

Mom help.

I couldn't help. Why was she so happy so nice.

Did she not know or was she just acting I can't tell.

"Y/N, why so worried" my mother said. "Istheresomethingwrong"

I wanted to cry.

What do I do what to do.

"Mom, let's talk in private." I felt like throwing up.

Was this the time that would happen.

Please stop.

Before talking, I said to Rain "Thank you, Rain for coming with me I'm going to get some rest. We can go on a date again next time."

"Of course, my darling! Thank you again it was the greatest thing ever! See you later honey!"

Rain was gone.

I looked to my mom and started.

I'm So Afraid

"Mom" i said. "She is not what she looks like she's not human I don't know she's going to hurt me so much"

What do you do if you're in a game and know you are gonna die to a boss and need to be stronger.

I wanted to be stronger I am useless right now.

What am I gonna do now, she's too strong for me to handle, I am just going to hurt or die.

My head hurts.

What am I gonna.

This is not good, what was I doing, why was I crying?

I'm so useless, I'm not good I'm not gonna help, they're all gonna die because I'm gonna die it's not over right they can't lose.

What are you gonna do if this can't stop.

I wanna see my family.

I'm trapped, is this not a game is this all on me.

I can't help with this or that and never got the chance I don't wanna lose that's it is that what you want me to lose what are you trying to do.

Her sweet laugh was not stopping oh god.

Mom help oh god.

"Honey. Are you okay? it feels like you are spouting nonsense."

Why are you saying what she wants did she get to you? to god what am I gonna do.

If they're with her they're all gonna die if I tell them or not.

"Ok Mom that is what we are gonna do oh goodness why does my head hurt" I was so tired what did I have to do to sleep with her forever or whatever.

If we are gonna do this again I don't wanna feel anything not the same I don't know what to do anything.

I need a plan.

Or something what's that about.

This was not me, it was not happening the rain it would not say.

Oh who is with her what's her name oh who was with her, what does mean if with them what was about that, and I wanted for those.

I wanted her, what.

Why are the voices coming back was that was.

Okay okay why was so happy

I'm Scared

That didn't even make sense whatever, it was.

I am good.

I had nothing. I am done, with everything.

I fell to the floor.

I could hear my mom calling my name, but it sounded distant, like I was underwater. Everything felt numb, my body, my mind, as if my sense could no longer hold what they were seeing.

I could barely see what she was saying, if I was still sane I would probably laugh.

A wave of exhaustion washed over me. I managed to crawl to my bed with my mom's help.

After a while i calmed down for a bit...

What was going on?

I pulled out my phone. Rain had sent me a dozen texts, each one more concerned than the last.

Rain: Y/N, are you okay?

Rain: I'm worried about you! What was all that about?

I felt like just looking at the texts from Rain made me feel like that again.

So I did the only thing I could and closed my eyes to sleep.

But as soon as I closed my eyes I couldn't focus.

Images of Rain just came up constantly to the point where I felt more dizzy than normal, a headache was starting to form.

I wanted this to stop so I opened my eyes.

I felt the need to talk to somebody.

I should call Ira and Ren they were my friends so they should know what they are doing.

So with that I searched for Ira's name and called.

"Yo, Y/N how was the date!" Ira said.

"I need to tell you about what just happened... can you meet me?" I said, while the dizziness was getting worse.

"Yeah man of course! Where should we meet?" He asked.

"What about that cafe, it's where I met her right?" I said with all my might.

"I don't know about that dude, maybe some other place you're okay with? What about our usual spot near the old shop?"

"Yes that sounds much better, see you then I need to rest" I answered, and threw myself to the bed as a wave of relief and exhaustion hit.

"See you then"

I fell asleep without realizing it.

I woke to my phone ringing after some time I started to pick it up.

When I took the phone and answered I saw Ira's number.

"Y/N, why didn't you come last night? Anyway that doesn't matter now. This Rain girl just came by, She's asking about you."

I jolted, realizing she was talking to my friends.

I asked as calmly as I could, "Okay okay, where is it? I'm going right now!"

"She said she wanted to talk to me. so meet me and Ren in the usual spot, don't die!" Ira said.

"Okay... okay... here we go... here we go..." I said, while putting on my shoes and going out to the spot.

As I walked, the world seemed to close in on me.

I had to remember. I could not lose this life as much as I didn't care.

As soon as I saw the spot I could see Ira and Ren looking at me.

"Yo! How you doing?" Ira said, with a smile and a hand to shake.

As soon as I shaked his hand.

"Rain isn't here yet so what are you doing? You said there was something you had to say last night" He said.

Before I could respond I felt it.

That weight, I have to always be with her right? Why are the voices coming back...

"Ira, it's about Rain. She is..." I barely said, I wanted to say more but that force was getting stronger the point where my thoughts had to become about her, and her alone.

I couldn't believe it what was even my goal again.

I don't know, maybe I'm crazy.

It feels like there is a voice inside me screaming and smiling, was it always like this? Did I lose it? How am I gonna do this?

And then I had an idea. An idea from one of those worlds.

Act normal.

I will just act and it's all good okay let's do this and then it's solved I am the greatest for doing so!

It seems I never stopped acting it's all that matters right? Okay.

"Hey hey! Let's not talk about that crazy stuff that happened, Rain is here and all I need is you two to talk to her you know? She said she wanted to know my friends better but I never really made the effort, haha" I said smiling and looking directly into Ira's eyes.

As I said that my heart was screaming.

I should kill I should do everything I can to save.

But I did this to her.

Why would I do this.

I felt like I was being ripped.

I could see Ira and Ren had looks of concern

"Dude" I could hear Ren's voice and it was so scary to me. "What's are you saying?"

"Let's not fight you know? Hahaha, if there is fighting then love cannot exist and that's no good you know?" I kept on and on laughing like a maniac, they must have thought I was done for, that I lost it.

Ira finally took ahold of me and shaked me so hard all I could do was stare blank.

I didn't know what to do what to do. It was like that was the person I would always become.

"Ira. Please don't fight anymore, and always love her."

As I finally stared Ira with those words I could see he was terrified.

But then behind me she said.

"Y/N!"

I was so happy she was on the world and that meant that everything was okay.

Then I just fainted to nothing.

The world just seemed to end as soon as I heard her.

I don't want the world to disappear and that's why all of this has to happen.

You know, there always was a great feeling of doubt in the world for me.

As if i always had to find it, a purpose. But when she came all of that just disappear.

Oh. Now i got it, It wasn't me, it was them who were talking.

I started to tear up I don't know why.

I love you so much Mom and Dad, you were the world to me.

I'm such a fool.

Goodbye.

I open my eyes.