I just wanted to start this off by thanking all of you guys who've been supporting me for so long, and even through that little publishing fiasco, still remained supportive. As far as the company I was published with...I won't speak about what happened until my contract is officially finished with them. But just be aware, publishing and working under a company wasn't all it cracked up to be.

But college is treating me well guys. It's so much fun. I hope everybody is doing good in school, at work or whatever it is you guys are doing right now. lol What are you guys doing? Are you in school? Are you working? Tell me because I feel like I haven't talked to you guys in months! lol

Nicole



I pulled the door to my condo open and scrunched up my face when I saw Theodore and Princess standing in front of me with suitcases.

"What the hell is going on?" I asked, confused.

Princess smiled. "Hey Mommy."

"Yeah, address my daughter before you start asking questions."

I frowned. I hate Theodore. "Hello Princess," I replied before looking over at him. "Is that good?"

"It could be better. Look, don't address my daughter like you gotta issue with her. You gotta issue with me so save the attitude when you're talking to her Nicole. A'ight?"

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever. I can talk to her however I wanna talk to her. I have the right to be upset since she hasn't come to see me in days."

"I'm sorry Mommy, we've been busy."

Theodore sighed as he wrapped his arm around Princess and pulled her close to him. "You don't need to apologize baby girl. Your Mom's a stupid ass bitch."

"Fuck you Theodore. Don't make it seem like I'm a bad parent when I'm doing the best I can to prove for my daughter. It's your fault for never letting her see me except for once a week. How come I can't see my daughter as much as I want to see her?"

"Because you don't give a damn about her. You never have! The only reason you got pregnant was 'cause your broke ass thought I was gonna take care of you but you really fucked yourself over Nicole. I'm not taking care of a grown ass woman, especially when she ain't even taking care of the child she helped make. And I never said you couldn't see her. You choose not to see her but that's all right. Where we're going, she won't miss you anyways."

I scrunched up my face. "You can't take my daughter away from me. It's in our custody agreement."

"No, that's for you. I'm the only person taking care of her and the courts know that. I can take my daughter where ever I wanna take her and you honestly don't have to know where I take her since you aren't supposed to be around her unless it's a supervised visit. I choose to let you be around my daughter out of the kindness of my heart."

"You don't even have a heart Theodore. You're a mean, heartless, vindictive piece of shit and you're using my daughter as a pawn. The only reason you're trying to lure her away from me is so you can look like the stand up parent as if you're the only person taking care of her."

"Bitch I am the only person taking care of her!"

"How so? I always help take care of Princess!"

Theodore shook his head. "You're a lying ass bitch Nicole. You don't do shit for Princess. When ever I need you to take care of her for a few hours, it's always an excuse why you can't. I ask you to feed her and you're giving her unhealthy shit that you know isn't good for her. I can't depend on you to do shit for your daughter. You're a sorry ass excuse for a mother, that's why me and Princess are leaving."

"And where the hell do you think you're taking my daughter?"

"We're moving out of this condo, that's for sure. But that's all you really need to know. You don't need to know where we're going since you don't help me out anyways."

"Fine! Take my daughter like you always do but don't think is the last you'll hear from me Theodore. I should call the police on your drug dealing ass."

Theodore's laughed. "Drug dealer? That's what you think I am?"

"I don't think, I already know what you do for a living. That's the only way you're making as much money as you do because those lame ass clubs of yours aren't bringing in enough money for you to just be able to pick up and move out of here or for you to afford the life you're living. It's obvious you're a drug dealer. Only drug dealers walk around with two phones that are constantly going off. Don't fuck with me or I'll call the cops on you."

"Wow. So now I can't have a business and a personal phone? I didn't know it was that serious. And those lame ass clubs are what's keeping you living here Nicole. If they were so lame, you'd be out on the streets sleeping with niggas for money just like your sister."

I rolled my eyes. I would've thought after five years he'd give up the fact that Tee Tee was prostituting back in high school. It's not her fault her mother forced her to go into the family business. She wasn't able to stop prostituting unless she moved out of her Mom's house and stopped depending on her. And at 17 years old, how would she be able to survive on her own? Theodore knows the circumstances she was under, so he has no right to judge her especially when he has his own dirt he's trying to keep hidden.

"Tee Tee isn't a prostitute anymore. She hasn't been one for years so stop bringing it up to diverge the topic of the conversation being on you."

"I'm not changing the subject," he smirked. "I just don't like bitches like you spreading lies about me all over the city. As much money as I make with my clubs and as much money as my family has, what makes you think I'd be working a mediocre job as a drug dealer? Shit. If anything, I'd be running the company."

"Yeah, but your dumb ass can't run anything so that's a complete lie."

"Yeah, it truly is," he agreed with me.

"And while you're not running the company, I know you're apart of the company somehow and I'll get you and your entire operation arrested."

Theodore smiled as he looked down at Princess, who had been watching the two of us go back and forth. "Close your eyes and ears Princess."

"Okay Daddy."

Princess placed her pointer fingers in each of her ears and closed her eyes tightly, doing as Theodore asked of her. Once Princess' eyes closed, Theodore stepped towards me and pushed me back into my contact.

"What the hell are you doing!" I yelled, trying to push him off of me but I couldn't. Theodore grabbed both of my arms with one hand and shoved me up against the wall with his other hand. I tried pulling my arm out of his grasp but he was a lot stronger than I thought he was. The last time I was this close to Theodore was back in high school when we made Princess and he wasn't strong at all but that's totally different now. "Get the hell off of me before I call the police on you damn it! You're just upset that I called you out 'cause you know you're a fuckin' drug dealer! Ge--"

My sentence was cut short when I felt Theodore's cold hands slide around my neck and take a firm grasp.

"I don't know what you're talking about Nicole, but if, in the event, that I was actually associated with a drug cartel, I wouldn't take it easy on you especially with you throwing out threats like that. With all the shit you talking, you'll be lucky if you wake up tomorrow morning. I know you tryna threaten me as if you'd actually call the police but don't fuck with me Nicole. I know niggas that'll kill you and won't think twice about it. Shit. I'mma just let you in on a little secret of mine. Look down bitch."

I looked down at Theodore who had lifted up the bottom of his shirt, revealing the gun he had on his hip. He let go of my hands and pulled the gun out of his pants before placing the barrel against my forehead. If I wasn't afraid his crazy ass would actually hurt me, I would've punched him or ran by now but I knew he'd be able to catch me before I got too far. So I just stood there with tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Don't fuck with me Nicole," he warned as he took the safety off of the gun. "Or one of these bullets are gon' have your name on it. You understand what the fuck I'm telling you?"

I nodded my head.

"Speak!" he demanded.

"Yes! Yes!" I cried.

"Good," he chuckled as he removed his hands from around my neck and placed the gun back in his pants. "I'm glad the two of us came to a better understanding. So with that being said, I'm taking my daughter and I'm leaving. I'll reach out to you when I feel like you're ready to see your daughter."

And with that, he was gone. I couldn't even put up a protest to stop him because I didn't even know how he'd react.

Theodore III



A week later, Princess and I were moving into our new home. I was joking when I said I was leaving the condo. If Aubrey could find our crib then any random mother fucker could and I can't risk my family getting hurt, so we just up and moved within a week. We moved in the middle of the night so nobody would know what we're doing and we found a home on the east side of Atlanta in a modest neighborhood. If it were up to me, I would've moved into one of the big ass houses in Buckhead or Brookhaven but the cops are too hot in those areas and I don't need anymore attention on myself.

And I'm only 23, I can't just up and purchase a whole house after living in a condo for the past few years. I'd be too suspicious so I just settled in a middle class neighborhood, in hopes of blending in with everybody else. But know my family, we won't be able to blend in anywhere we go.

Jazmine was staying with us too but as far as Lindsey and Daniel go, Lindsey decided to find a place for them to live on her own. That's perfectly fine with me because now I don't have to worry about her and Jazmine constantly getting into it, but now I gotta go out of my way to check up on her and Daniel. I made sure she got out of the condominiums we were living in and found a house not too far from where we're living. I think it's just her and Daniel living in the house but I gotta strange feeling that Cashmere nigga is probably laid up in there with her.

I looked down at my phone, particularly my message thread with Goldie. I haven't heard from her in over a week. She was supposed to chill with me about a week ago but she never showed up. She hasn't reached out to me but I know she ain't dead or nothing. She's been coming to work right on time and leaving as soon as her shift is over. She doesn't even stick around to kick it with me anymore. She doesn't speak to me anymore. Hell, she barely looks in my direction and I don't know what the hell happened.

Just a week ago, we were cool. We were talking everyday and making sure we saw each other often but everything just changed within a matter of hours. I don't know what the hell I did to her but I'm not about to be hung up on some chick. I know it's nothing wrong with her if she's coming to work every day so I'll take her hint and just stop fucking with her if that's what she wants me to do.

I sighed as I heard my second phone start ringing. The only people calling me on this phone are business related. I looked down at the phone and immediately recognized Aubrey's number as it flashed across the screen. Damn. This niggas' been blowing my line up ever since I gave him my number. Shit. It might be time to switch phones and I'll just reach out to him whenever I need him because he's been getting too comfortable calling me.

"What's up Aub?" I answered.

He heavily sighed. "I didn't think you'd answer since I've called already today."

"I was busy."

"I figured but what's this I hear about a party at Club Reign tonight that Jazmine's supposed to be hosting? How come I wasn't invited?"

I sighed. "My nigga, you know the situation you're in," I replied. Aubrey's been around for about a week now but the only people that know he's back are me and the people I work for. I put Aubrey on as a rookie, not investing too much in him, but that's as far as he's gotten into getting into my life. He's gone to my club once but nothing else. Nobody even knows he's back and I don't think I'm ready for everybody to find out he's back just yet. "I got you a job just like you wanted but you getting too friendly. Chill out."

"Damn. I know I'm tryna move fast but I was locked up for five years. I'm ready to stop hiding and just let everybody know I'm back. How come I can't do that?"

"You know why 'cuz."

"I'm not gon' get in no shit tonight. All I'm tryna do is turn up with y'all tonight 'cause I know everybody's gonna be there. Just let me slide through for a couple hours man. Shit. I get bored sitting around all day."

"Well I got you a job so you technically shouldn't be sitting around all day. You should be working."

"You know what I mean," he said as he kissed his teeth. "When I'm not working, I'm bored. I need to turn up tonight or something. Shit. I ain't been doing shit since I got out."

I sighed, knowing I'd regret this later. "Fine. Slide through the club if you want. We got a V.I.P section but Jazmine paid for it so I don't know if she's gonna want you to even sit in it. Shit. I don't even know if it's enough room for you in the section."

"Damn. Who's all coming?"

"Me, Lindsey and some of Jazmine's little hood rat ass friends. Ion really know for sure."

"What's the occasion?"

I took a deep breath. Jazmine dropped out of school a few days ago because she was getting paid a whole lot more as a party promoter. I don't know how she got in contact with this guy, but he offered to manage her if she went to clubs being a promoter so tonight she's hosting her first party. We're all just coming along to support her even though I disagreed with her dropping out of school to do something that she won't be able to do for the rest of her life. But it's none of my business. I'm just coming to support and I'm dragging Lindsey, Cash and Donny with me so I won't be alone. I know Lindsey and Jaz don't really fuck with each other but I'm hoping they'll set their differences aside just for tonight.

"There's not one. We're just going out to have a good time, that's all. So with that being said, don't fuck up the mood."

"I'll try not to."

"Good. I'll see you later."

"A'ight."

And with that, I ended the call. Damn. I hope tonight goes over smoothly but I know shit doesn't ever work that way. Lindsey and Jazmine don't get along. I'm really not fucking with Cash, especially after I found out he's been cheating on Lindsey. I'm keeping it cordial with Lindsey because she's my sister and I'm tryna show her some respect but it's hard to respect a person when they keep letting someone else walk all over them like they don't mean shit. It looks like I'm only cool with Donny though. But I don't know how he and Aubrey are gonna be towards each other since they got into it the night Aubrey got arrested.

Damn. Maybe I shouldn't have agreed to go to this event tonight.

Milan



I sat in my bed alone, like I normally do, since Teddy hasn't been home in weeks. I haven't seen him in weeks either. The last time I saw him was when Theodore bought one of the strippers from the club over to Lindsey's house for dinner. Teddy and I talk every few days but nothing to keep me entertained. It's like he doesn't even care about me. I don't know why he'd marry me just to leave me by myself. Because if I'm not at work, then I'm sitting in the house alone.

I took a deep breath and just decided to call him since we haven't spoken in days. I tapped my fingers against the back of my phone, growing nervous each time the phone rang because I knew i'd eventually get his voicemail like I usually do. I slightly gasped when I heard the ringing stop and his voice instead of his voicemail.

"What's up Milan?" he answered.

I slightly smiled. "Hey baby. I was just wondering how you were doing."

"I'm fine. Why are you calling me at work? Is something wrong?"

"No, I just wanted to see how you were doing since you haven't been home or talked to me in awhile. I didn't know it was an issue to check up on my husband."

He sighed. "It's not an issue but I already told you not to be calling me while I'm at work. I'm busy."

"Well you don't sound too busy right now," I replied before I stayed silent so I could hear what was going on, on his end of the phone. I didn't hear anything aside from music playing in the background so I knew he wasn't at the arena. I'd hear basketballs bouncing or shoes squeaking against the floor but I didn't. What the hell is he doing? "What are you doing Teddy?"

"Nothing that's important to you," he kissed his teeth. "Damn. Why you all up in my business all of a sudden Milan? You know I'm at work so Ion know why you tripping like I'm doing something wrong."

"I never said you were doing anything wrong Teddy," I sighed. "I just wanted to know what and how you were doing since we haven't seen or talked to each other in awhile. That's all. It's like you're too busy to even take care of your wife."

"I told you before we got married that I'm a busy man and I didn't know my wife was a child that needed to be taken care of. We're both adults Milan, and busy adults at that. If I have to leave town for a few days to handle some business across the country then that's just what I have to do but I hoped that you'd be grown enough to handle staying in the house that I'm paying for by yourself for a few days."

"Look, don't talk down on me like I'm some child Teddy. I know you're busy and so am I but you never spend time with me. And I'd be all right with you leaving town for a few days but I haven't talked to you in almost a week, the last time we saw each other was over a month ago and you haven't slept in the bed with me in months. As your wife, as the woman you claim to love, you sure as hell shove me to the side like I'm not even important. Shit. You're spending more time at the arena and out in California than you do at your own house. If I didn't know any better, I'd say you had another woman out in California you're messing around with," I replied.

Part of me suspects he's messing around with another woman. It's like being married means nothing to Teddy. It's just something to keep the main woman he's messing around with happy for the moment but he truly doesn't care because he's still fucking around with other bitches like he isn't wearing a wedding ring. And part of me feels extremely bad and guilty because I'm going thoroughly exactly what I put him and Victoria through years ago. I was the woman he was messing around with while he was still married to Victoria.

And for him to mess around on Victoria, a woman he's been with for years and has children with, what makes me any different? He's probably never been faithful throughout our entire relationship.

"And if I did, what would you do about it?" he answered, catching me off guard.

I scrunched up my face. That's definitely not the answer I was expecting from him. I figured he'd lie like he normally does and make me feel bad for accusing him of doing something that he's actually doing but won't ever admit to it.

"Right, you wouldn't do shit if I had another broad out here. Man, y'all women are a trip," he laughed. "A man can't fly out to another state for a few days to handle some business because he's part owner of a team without his old lady accusing him of cheating on her. If I was cheating on you Milan, I would've just came out and said I was because I'm a real nigga like that but I'm not cheating on you. Maybe you're just feeling guilty about all of those hotels you've been staying at."

My eyes widened. How'd he know about the hotels? The only person that knows about the hotels are Theodore since he and I are the only ones that go.

"E-Excuse me?"

He chuckled. "Yeah, I caught you off guard. Didn't I? Don't start all that stuttering now Milan 'cause you know what the fuck I'm talking about. If you're gonna be cheating on me, at least pay for the room with cash or find a way to pay that can't be traced. But if you're paying and using one of the cards I'm paying the bill on, don't think I'm not gonna look back at all the purchases or look into the $500 hotel room stays at the Hilton you go to every week. I'm not a fuckin' fool so don't play with my fuckin' money Milan."

"I don't know what you're talking about," I quickly replied.

"Oh yes the fuck you do, you lying ass bitch. Don't let me catch your trifling ass cheating Milan and you better pay off that big bill you got at the Hilton 'cause I'm not paying for you to fuck around on me. And if I find out you're fuckin' some other nigga, I'mma kill the both of y'all mother fuckers. You understand me?"

I sighed. "Teddy, I seriously don't know what you're talking about."

He laughed. "A'ight, keep playing dumb Milan but it's coming up on that time of the week when you make that trip to the Hilton. They not gon' let you stay in a room if you gotta large bill you can't pay off."

"I wouldn't need to go to a hotel because I'm in a house all by myself. If I wanted to cheat on you, I'd do it in the house and in our bed since you technically don't live here since you haven't been here in months."

"I paid for that bed! And I'm paying for the house."

I smirked. "Oh no Teddy. You might've paid for everything when you were with your exes but just remember we're going half and half on everything here. So what's mine is yours and what's yours is mine."

"Nah, what's mine is mine and what's yours is mine since I bought everything you got. Don't fuck with me Milan. I'll take back everything I've ever given you, including those hard ass titties of yours. Don't forget I'm the one that paid for you to get them done and I'll be the one to pop them silicon balloons you got in your chest. Don't fuck with me and get that damn bill paid off. And don't call my phone again while I'm at work."

The line went dead before I could even respond to him. Damn. I don't even know what I would've said to him had he given me the chance to. Teddy just gets under my skin a lot of times and I don't know how to deal with him. I don't know how Victoria did it for so many years but I need some advice on how to keep my marriage strong like hers was so I did something I didn't think I'd ever do. I'm going to reach out to Victoria to get help on my marriage because I'm on my last leg and I'm at the brink of giving up on this.

I put the phone up to my ear and waited for it to ring. Unlike with Teddy, Victoria answered immediately.

"Hello?"

I took a deep breath. "Hey, is this Victoria?"

"That depends on who's asking. Who's this?"

"I-It's Milan," I replied. I paused, waiting on her to respond but she stayed silent. "I know this is strange for me to be calling but I'm extremely desperate right now and I need your help. I understand if you don't want to talk to me and I'd even understand if you just hung up on me right now because I'm the last person that should be looking for advice from my husband's ex wife but I really need your help Victoria and you're the only person that can help me."

She sighed. "What do you need help with Milan?"

"I know you and Teddy were together for years, many more than he and I've been together, and you guys had your ups and downs but you guys always remained strong regardless. You guys settled down and made a family. I guess all I'm asking is, how'd you keep things going with him for so long? Because at this point, I don't know what else I can do to keep him entertained."

Victoria kissed her teeth. "Are you serious?"

I sighed. "Yes," I mumbled. "I know I'm a damn fool to be asking you how to take care of the man I took from you but I really need some help."

"Okay, I'll help you out but please stop bringing up how you took Teddy away from me. The two of us know what went down a few years ago so there's no need to continuously bring it up as if it's something new. And two, you need to stop being so damn sad and depressed all the time. Teddy thrives on making women feel guilty when he's in the wrong, so what you need to do is ignore him the way he's ignoring you and not spending time with you. You need to get up and find something to do and make sure you dress sexy and put it all over social media so he can see and get jealous. That way he'll regret leaving you at home all of the time and not spending time with you. I mean, I never had to go through this with Teddy since he was constantly around but I know him and I know how jealous and territorial he can get."

I was listening to what she was saying but it's like everything she said went in one ear and out of the other. How does she know Teddy's been ignoring me and not spending time with me? I didn't go into detail with her because I don't need her all up in my marriage and judging me like she's doing now. I knew I shouldn't have called her because it looks like Teddy's been spreading our business to her anyways. Shit. Maybe he's not cheating with just any random woman. He must still be dipping back into his old ass wife.

"I never said Teddy was ignoring me," I told her. "But that just proves to me Teddy's been over there talking about our marital issues to a woman that he's not even with anymore. I don't know what he told you but I don't need you and him gossiping about us or judging us because of what he said."

"Look baby girl, I don't ask Teddy to tell me about your marriage. He just tells me because we're close friends and he doesn't have anyone else to confide in but I don't judge you. I only judge him because he's the one that decided to up and marry a girl that's younger than his oldest child. I judge him for marrying a little girl that doesn't know how to handle a man his age, so don't get it twisted baby girl. You're the last thing on my mind and your name never comes out of my mouth. I don't talk bad about you because I feel sorry for you."

I scrunched up my face. "Excuse me? Feel sorry for me? Why would you feel sorry for me?"

"Because clearly you were never raised properly or else you wouldn't be lusting after an old man like Teddy. You don't love him and you don't want him. You just want his money and the perks that come with his lifestyle but I'm sure you've heard this multiple times since the two of you went public so I won't dwell on it."

"My parents raised me properly Victoria. Teddy and I are in love. I understand you're upset that he and I are together but you have a new man, a new fiancee."

"I know I have a fiancee, that's why you don't see me chasing after Teddy anymore because I don't want him. I haven't wanted him in years."

I smacked my lips. "And how would I know that?"

"Because if I wanted Teddy, I could have him back, seeing as though I'm the only thing that's stopping us from getting back together. I don't want Teddy because he's fucked up in the head and he has too much baggage and let's face it, he acts like a little ass boy. So, you can have him. You can take him and all of his baggage because I don't want to deal with it anymore. I have my own life and my own fiancee to take care of, so please don't call my phone because you need someone to babysit your problems with my ex. If you need somebody to talk to, why don't you call up the nigga you're sleeping with since you're running up such a large bill at the Hilton?"

"BITCH!" I yelled as soon as I heard the dial tone.

How dare she try to play me as if I didn't come to her with respect! I know she's the last person I could've come to about advice with my husband but I figured, since she claims she's a grown woman, that she'd be able to help me with dealing with Teddy and all of his issues. But clearly I was wrong. Now I see why the two of them got along and stayed together for so many years. They're both crazy and delusional and the two of them deserve each other.

Lindsey



"Damn, you look good," Cash smiled as I stepped into my heels.

I smiled. "Thanks baby."

Cash and I are doing better, I guess. I wouldn't say moving in together is making much of a difference in our relationship but at least I know where he's at at night and that's important for my own sanity. I hate having to follow behind Cash as if he's some little kid but if that's what needs to be done to keep our relationship going then that's fine with me. Our relationship just needs a little fine tuning, so I hope moving in together will do the trick.

"So what's this little event Prince wants us to come to even supposed to be about?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know. He said he needed somebody to help support whose ever hosting this party tonight since it's somebody he knows. I'm not sure but he said we'd have free bottles all night so I'm just going to drink. But I swear if that bitch Jazmine is there, I'm walking the fuck up outta that club."

Cash nodded his head. "A'ight, that's fine with me but you know her and Prince are close so more than likely she's gonna be there."

"So more than likely I'm leaving."

"Why not just leave the section and turn up somewhere else? That broad doesn't have to ruin our night."

"You and that broad are the reason why me and her don't get along," I mumbled as I walked away from him but he grabbed my arm and yanked me back.

"Ion know what you just mumbled but I know you said some slick shit under yo breath. Whatever the fuck you got to say, just say it to my face since you probably said some stuff about that bitch blowing me. I told you the night it happened I wasn't even thinking about her. We were both drunk and she wasn't even that good baby girl."

"That still doesn't make it any better. You still let that bitch suck all over the dick that's only supposed to be for me."

"My shit's only for you Lindsey."

"Then how come half the bitches in the city got a taste of my shit?"

"The same way half the niggas in LA got a taste of you," he responded, making me scrunch my face up.

"What the fuck did you say?"

"Man, you heard me Linds. The two of us both did our dirt and we gotta live with it. I'm not fucking around with no other bitches 'cause I'm living here with you. I don't have any place to fuck the broads since Prince keeps a close eye on me at the club. I'm not fucking around on you no more."

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, whatever. You did your dirt before and during our relationship. I did mine before I even met you so you can miss me with that shit."

"A'ight cool."

"So that's all you got to say?"

"What the hell else am I supposed to say Linds? I'm not gonna keep defending myself when I know I ain't doing shit. I'm not fucking no other bitches 'cause I already smashed or got blown by any bitches I ever wanted."

I scoffed. "So now you're coming back to me after you've done your dirt? How many bitches have you smashed since we've been together?"

"Just two."

I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, like that makes it so much better. And how many have given you head?"

"Like three."

"So you cheated on me five times with five random broads, but those are only the ones I know about. The way I see it, you're a walking disease and you need to get tested. I don't know what the hell you got."

"Whatever I got, you got too. So you need to get tested too."

"Oh sweetie, I already got tested a couple weeks ago because I know just how nasty and disgusting you like your bitches. So, to protect myself, I got myself tested and I'm disease free. Now you, on the other hand, I don't know what you got or what bitches you got diseases from. And don't think I don't know the broads you fucked around with."

He folded his arms. "Name one."

"Jazmine."

"Other than her."

My eyes widened. "Oh, you want the list of bitches since you getting bold tonight?"

He shrugged his shoulders. "Shit, you might as well give 'em to me since you know 'em so well."

"Alright well there's Jazmine, Mocha, Lisa, Delicious, Caramel and Neisha. I know all the bitches."

He scrunched up his face. "Damn. Why you all up in my business?"

"Because when you step out of our relationship, your business becomes my business, especially when your extra bitches don't seem to care about you having a girlfriend. But why should they care? My own boyfriend doesn't even acknowledge me because if he did, he wouldn't be stepping out on me."

"That was months ago. Will you just let it go?"

"I'm never going to let it go. You hurt me Cash."

"You don't sound hurt. You sound bitter as hell."

"Why should I cry and be upset over a nigga that doesn't give a damn about me? Of course I'm bitter as hell because I can't stand you."

"Then why are you still with me? Why are you still hanging on to this relationship if you can't get rid of the past? Why can you just say 'fuck this' and the two of us just leave each other the fuck alone? 'Cause I'm tired of going back and forth with you about this same shit. We argue and fight about some shit that happened in the past. I'm over it. Why can't you just get over it and move the fuck on?"

"Because I can't get over being hurt."

Cashmere tightened his grip on my arm and pulled me closer to him before he yelled, "Then just leave me the fuck alone!"

"Is that what you want?"

"No but I'm tired of fighting with you all the time. The two of us can't be alone for ten minutes without getting into it over some shit that happened in the past. Maybe the two of us just need some space from each other for awhile, you know to get our shit together."

"It's you Cashmere. It's not me."

"Nah, you need to get your shit together too. Stop letting me fuck over you all the time and take me back after everything I've put you through. You need to have a backbone and you need to better your self-esteem 'cause yours is low. You deserve better than the shit I've put you through and you know that."

I slightly frowned. Cash is right. I keep taking him back and giving him chance after chance every time he fucks up and I need to stop doing that. That only proves to him that he can step outside of our relationship as many times as he wants because in the end, he knows I'll take him back. Yeah, I know Cash cheated on me with five different women but I took him back every single time. I shouldn't have taken him back the first time because that just gave him ammunition to continue lying and cheating.

But I can't take him back anymore. Within five years, how can you cheat with five different women? Especially when you claim you're with a woman you're in love with. That just shows that he doesn't love me enough to remain faithful, if he's even in love with me. I know Cash his love for me but being in love and having love for a person are two different things.

"You're right," I replied as I backed away from him. "Maybe you should leave Cashmere."

"Right now?"

I nodded my head. "Yeah."

"What about the party tonight?"

"Maybe it's best if you don't come. You already know Prince hasn't been fucking with you anyways so maybe you shouldn't come. Just save us all the trouble and just don't come tonight."

He sighed. "A'ight, cool. If that's how you feel then I won't come through. But where do you expect me to go? The two of us done moved in together. What the fuck am I supposed to do?"

"You can stay in a hotel, I guess. But you can't stay here until you find another place."

He took a deep breath. "Fine. I'll leave tonight. When are you leaving for the party?"

"Right now."

"A'ight, well hit me up when you get back tonight so I can get some of my shit."

"Okay, I will."

Without saying anything else, Cash grabbed his keys off of the dresser and walked out of my room. I sighed. I know this is what's best for Cash and I. I'm gonna take this time to better myself, I just hope he does the same thing and isn't going on a break with me as an excuse to fuck around with other bitches.

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