Madison

This morning I woke up in Vito's master room. I was no longer downstairs where I gave birth. My baby is finally here and their's no way I can express how happy I am. My father decided to stay last night in the extra room so we can talk later on. Him and Victor are apparently best friends and cannot stop talking to one another. Vito had his cook make breakfast and bring me. I tried calling him on my phone only for him to send it to voicemail.

I put my tray to the side and looked over into the cot to watch our baby. We still haven't found a name yet and this is the hardest thing. Imagine giving your baby a name you don't like but will be calling it for the rest of your life. His whole face is Vito's making me beam. I fed him an hour ago and he just seems so relaxed. His baby smell is outstanding and I just really love him. I grab my phone from off the nightstand and begin taking pictures of him.

"Mommy loves you so much toot" " that's your nickname toot" I whisper

The room door opens and Vito enters the room.

"Hey I tried calling you earlier." I say looking down at the pictures I just took of him

"Yea I know" he mutters

"You want to go outside and speak?" I asks looking up at him

"I don't know how to say this. Because every time you get emotional you want to threaten to take my kid away." He says opening up the closet

"I'm sorry about that. It was the pregnancy talking."

It really was my anger talking. I'm not that bold to just take Victor's child away from him.

"And you believed me? You're the high power man of this city and you're scared of little ole me threats?" I asks chuckling

"Madison it's really not funny. I take that to heart. Kids ain't no joke and I don't play about mines." He says

"I'm sorry V, I really am."

I watch as he bites his lip before shaking his head.

"Did you find a place yet to move, I'll pay your year rent."

"I-I have a life in New York V I just can't give it up." I whine

On two occasions already we talked about this. How fair is it that I give up my life in New York to move back here in Detroit.

"Well you're a mother now. Some things you have to give up." He says nonchalant

"When I met you months ago you weren't even like this, what happened?"

"You are what happened to me. Madison it's you,someone so innocent can be so toxic and just ruin your life." He says

"I ruined your life?" I asks biting the inside of my cheek

"I changed for you. I'm slipping all because of you. I have people calling me by my name, I'm trying to do things to make people like me,and last night I spared nigga life." He says

Thank God our baby is in the room because if he wasn't we'd be down each other's throat.

"That's why you almost missed the birth of your son?" I asks now looking him in the eyes

"Madison you told that nigga what I do. You described me as somebody who's a bad person. I may kill but I kill what's a threat. Since I met you I ain't shed anybody blood yet. A whole year and I didn't get to kill one single person. You wanna know why? Cause I respected you enough not to come home with any blood on me. We weren't even living together but I still ain't do it. I lost who I really am just to please you. And for what? You don't care about me, you don't even care about my feelings. You wanna tell that man how ruthless I am.The one girl I put my trust in can't even look at me without thinking I'll kill her in a second if I wanted to. I love you but this will never work. I love my son, the most precious thing you ever brought in my life but he can never and will never see his mother and father together."

"Tell that Seven nigga he can have you if he still want you." He says before walking out the room.

Author pov

Madison's heart ached badly after hearing what Victor said to her. She wanted to cry,die, then come back alive to repeat all over again. She felt like therapy was working at first but it just got them back in the same spot.

"So how have you been?" Morgan asks sipping on a glass of vodka

"I've been holding up." Madison answers glancing between her father and the tv

"Madison why didn't you tell me?"

"Pops I couldn't tell you,I was embarrassed. " she says looking away

"I still am. I always told you that I would get married then have kids"

"Madison it's okay darling. Yall love each other very much and when a baby is made out of love that is all that matters." Morgan replies

"Daddy we don't love each other. We're not dating and sure enough can't seem to get right."

"Baby let me ask you something. If he didn't love you do you think you'd be here?" Morgan asks

"He's just doing it."

"Aht aht! I taught you this already. That man doesn't owe you a single thing. If a man hated you, you would know. You will start hating yourself if a man hated your guts,specifically him"

"Baby even if y'all never work out yall will forever be friends. Victor is the father of your child and he has learned a lot from you."

"Daddy he said I ruined his life." She wines

"Baby and you said you were going to take his child away from him. Hurt things are always going to be said if anger is not controlled. I taught you always to play fair and I meant it. You picked up a great man."

"Daddy I just want to cry. I want to die." Madison reveals

"I brung a child into this world knowing I wanted to die. At times I wish I-

"Madison would you like to go visit your mother?" Morgan asks before emptying his glass

"I don't know"

"You haven't spoken to her in awhile. I know how you get when you don't talk to her."

"I-I just want to lay down for now."

Morgan nods and watches as she makes her way upstairs.

"Kiss my grandson for me"

Morgan exits the living room and makes his way outside in search of Vito. On his way out he see's Vito sitting down blunt to his lips.

"You didn't give me smoking vibes." Morgan says getting Vito's attention

"Ofcourse, I have cuban cigars if weed isn't your thing."

"Son you're supposed to go back to rehab but I think you need to stay home for a while. You'll be occupied with the baby but Madison, she's out of it. She's losing her mind. Somewhere down this path of life she hit a bump and never overcame it. As her father I feel like she needs medical help."

"Medical help? Madison is well and capable Morgan"

"Victor, she just confessed to me that she wants to die."

Victor removes the blunt from his lip and scrunches his face up.

"What -she said that?"

"Twice if I'm not mistaken" Morgan says

"Maybe I was too hard on her." Vito says shaking his head

He ashes his blunt and lays it on his ashtray.

"I'm going to go speak with her."

"Need me to stay to help mediate?"

"Yes, I don't know how to get through Madison. I say one thing and she takes it to heart."

"She gets that from her mother. Her mother was just as soft as her."

Vito walks back in the house and makes his way upstairs to the room. He opens the door and looks around to see Madison under the blanket. He walks over to her side of the bed and takes a spot on the edge at where she is.

"Madison"

"Yes" she sniffles

"Mentally are you okay? Be honest with me"

Victor didn't need a response the sobs already answered his question.

"Why can't you love me Victor? Why can't you see I love you?" She asks, pulling the covers off of her.

"Madison I tell you I love you everyday."

"Victor you don't have to lie to me. I know you don't love me. I'm not like those other girls. You co-

"Stop it, I love my woman with some meat on them but I also love when my woman can think properly. You need to really see someone ." Victor announces staring at her

"Babygirl I can say I love you all I want but you won't believe it until you actually believe you got love for yourself and I really mean it." Victor says

"You need professional help,help that Doctor Green can't fix."

"So this is it? You don't want me anymore?" She cries

"Madison listen to me. I need you to-

"No just stop" she says looking away

Victor didn't want to have to 302 her but she's beginning to act differently.

"Madison you need help and I'm going to help you with that."

"I don't need no help Victor."

Victor's low eyes stay on her before he closes them. He felt guilty that he thought he was going through something much worse than her. She has her own demons.

"I'm going to see if I can get you help from home our son needs to be with his mother right now"

"Why do you think I need help?" She looks up teary eyed

"Madison you sat and told your father you want to die,are you depressed?"

"No"

"Do you feel like you want to harm yourself?

"No" she answers

"Are you lying to me?"

He looks back at her and watches as she begins crying again.

"Madison you know I hate seeing you cry. Tell me what I have to do to make you feel better." Vito says biting his cheek

"Love me - be with me"

"I'm sorry M but we can't. You need to find yourself and I'm allowed to be mad at you. You told that man,a complete stranger about us, about me. Maddy no man should know about my life and you helped him with that. You know how many people want my spot? You just gave him information on me like it's nothing. I'm hurt- we're both hurt and two hurts don't mix well. One has to fix or both if they can. I'll forever say this to the day I die I love you but we can't do this. That is my final word." He says watching her nod

"Who will want me. I - I'll never be able to have a family." She cries

"M stop talking like that. Any and every man on this earth will want you. You are smart,beautiful, and you can throw down in the bed. Girl, you're good. And don't ever forget that we're here. You have a son and Layla. She will always love you like her own mother" Vito says flagging his hand at her

"Victor you don't get it. I want you and only you. I-I can change please-

"Get help please for me,For layla ,and for our son." He says now gripping on her hand

Victor looks over on the cot to see the baby.

"Cairo, Let's name him Cairo." Vito says turing to look at Madison

"Cairo?"

"What, you don't like that?" Vito asks

"I love it." She says giving a quick smile before it fades away.

Weeks later

Madison grips on to her pillow after releasing, She has finally got time to make love to herself after not being able to because her mind has been with therapy sessions and taking care of Cairo. Victor stuck to his word and got her a home. An house to be exact that's just a couple houses down. She tosses the vibrated tool across her bed and looks at her alarm clock to see it's only six o'clock. Victor had just dropped some off some of her stuff off. He was shirtless and per usual looking good. Day by day she's getting herself together and learning the value of understanding herself. Victor and her don't really converse unless it's a quick question or to discuss when Vito is going to pick up Cairo and vice versa with Layla. Madison also made it her duty to not run out of her life also, She never knew how attached she was before until now. She also lately has been going to therapy more often after Victor asked her if it would be okay if he brings a friend around the kids. Madison agreed that he could but she didn't like the fact that he had gotten over her so quick.

She still felt a little in the mood so she gets up and grabs the tool again. She turns it back on and lays flat on her back. Anticipated to what's to come next, just as she's about to begin the sound of Cairo cries fills her ears making her drop the vibration.

"Yes Cairo."

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