"How did you feel then and there?" Doctor Diaz asks staring at her

"I was hurt...but I feel better." She answers looking up at him shrugging her shoulders

This morning she wasn't really in the mood to get all dressed up so she threw a cap on over her head and wore an oversized shirt with some tights.

"Are you sure you're okay Madison?"

"I cried all night, what else can I do but cry?" She asks nodding her head

Dr.Diaz watched as her face stayed calm.

"So you're over the fact that your ex boyfriend/child's father paid for this guy to talk to you?"

"I honestly don't care...It's something expectable coming from him. He has this mentality that he can be with whoever he wants but I must stay true to him but I'm done. I'm done with men in this city." She says pointing her finger down when she says this

"Do you feel loved?" He asks writing on his notepad

"Yes I do"

Her right leg crosses her left while her body posture stands straight.

"Have you spoken to him?"

"Not at all." Madison says dryly

" Would you like to speak to him?" Dr.Diaz questions

"Not as of right now. I don't care about the situation anymore but I dislike him very much" "I'm not going to use hate because he's my first love but that was so low even for him. No matter what his excuse is. I would never do that to him...ever"

"Do you look at it as a positive thing?"

"Him paying someone that I was about to have sex with last night is not positive. I'd probably feel worse if I slept with him and he told me after."

"You liked this man that much?"

"Yes I did...I probably still do because feelings don't disappear into thin air" she responds

"I think what you're trying to do is go back to stage one. You're trying to bottle your feelings to feel less like a burden.Your not a burden...you're a patient who needs help and that's what I'm here for."

"Actually I'm not, This morning I woke up feeling normal. I have no tears left to cry."

Dr.Diaz nods his head and rips off a piece of paper handing it to her.

"I think you should call me tonight. We should talk more about this. I have my next patient soon." He says getting up from his chair

Madison nods her head and rises from her spot. She shakes his hands before leaving his large office. She jogs down the spiral staircase till she reaches the lobby. The cool air from the air condition provokes goose bumps to spread on her arms. Angered by the freezing temperature she pushes the door and exits out of the building. She looks around insight for Raymond's car only to see his parking space empty. She pulls her phone out of her pocket in an attempt to call him. Her finger presses his number and waits till he finally picks up.

"Ray where'd you go? I told you I'd be out at ten."

"Girl ya baby daddy sent me away." Ray answers

"RAY AND YOU LISTENED TO HIM? I ASKED YOU TO STAY HERE AND WAIT FOR ME" She yells

"Madison why are you even yelling?"

"FORGET IT RAYMOND!"

She hangs up the phone furiously and slides it back in her pocket. She steps off the side walk to walk through the parking lot when a car (Vito's) cuts her off.

"Ivy get in the car."

Madison continues walking.She walks around the car and begins her journey to the bus stop. Vito trails beside her slowly.

"Ivy! Please get in the car."

Madison stops dead in her tracks and turns her head to make eye contact with him.

"What can't you comprehend that I don't want you. I don't need you. Ever since you entered my life I've been living in hell. Leave me alone Victor. I'm dead serious."

She continues walking till she reaches the bus stop. She huffs in anger , in regret of leaving her car at Hassan's apartment.

Vito parks his car illegally on the side of the road and hops out of the car. He jogs over to Madison and plops down beside her.

"I know you're angry at me but I know you love me. I will apologize everyday for the rest of my life until you forgive me if I have to. Madison I never meant to hurt you. What I did was selfish but it was only with the thought of good intentions. At the time it felt like a good decision. I only did it so that you could get over me. I only did that because I felt like you deserved a good man to help distract you from me. But baby I couldn't bear to see you with another man, another man willing to play step daddy or a man wanting to walk you down that aisle that isn't me. I thought I could do it but you mean so much to me and more. We have only known each other for a year and for some reason I feel like I have known you my whole life. I couldn't love Lala because I'm in love with you. You're the only person I rather be with. What I am trying to say is will you marry me?"

He gets down on one knee and pulls out a slick velvet box.

Madison scrunches her face up before scoffing

"Are you crazy?"

Madison shakes her head before looking him in the eye.

"I don't accept your proposal."

She gets up from the bench and chuckles to her self before walking off.

Vito sits on the bench lost with words. The heartbreak that he's feeling couldn't even compare to what he felt months ago or even a couple years ago. The knot in his throat made it hard for him to swallow. His hand runs against his head before he gets up from his spot and makes his way to the car. Earlier he felt like she would have definitely accepted his proposal after hearing what he had to say. His heart aches for her whilst his body yearns for hers. He pulls the box containing the twelve Karat ring from his pocket and places it on the passenger side. A phone call shows on his car making him answer.

"What"

"So what yall getting a hotel ?" Dre asks

"She said no" Vito answers dryly

The line went quiet for a while before Dre's loud laughter filled up the speaker of the car.

"AHHHH YOU THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO ACCEPT?! NIGGA YOU ACT LIKE JUST NOT HOURS AGO SHE WAS ABOUT TO GIVE HEAD TO SOMEBODY ELSE!" Dre yells

"Man this ain't funny."

"Nah man it is ,matter of fact I think I need to add Smiley and Warren to this call"

"This isn't a joke bruh that's your problem always thinking something is a joke." Vito says harshly

"It's not my fault your a dumb ass. Bruh you set her up, supposed that man was crazy."

"Hassan ain't stupid to do anything to my babymom" Vito asserts

"He obviously was crazy enough to be about to hit. Until your big head decided you wanted to waltz up in her crib."

"Bruh I'm hanging up. You're just making jokes like I don't have feelings." Vito says before hanging up

He pulls his car from off the side and merges into the traffic.

"Car call Santana"

He listens as the call rings before the person answers

"Vito my brother what's up?"

"Santana cancel the trip to Cancun." He answers

"Why? Does the wifey not like hot places ?" Santana asks with his foreign accent slipping in

"Actually save the trip you and Catalina can get a break from the twins, have fun."

Vito ends the call and drives in silence to his destination. Once he reaches he parks his car in a spot. He grabs the ring box and slides it back into his pocket. He walks through the back of the building and unlocks the door. The smell of bleach and fresh flowers blinds his nose. He walks through the doors labeled Private Office and locks the door behind him. He takes a seat on the office chair and pulls one of his cabinet drawers. His eyes light up once his eyes connect to the bottle of Courvoisier. He grabs the bottle along with a shot glass and places it on his desk. He twists the cap off and pours himself a shot. He pulls the box from his pocket and places it on the desk. He opens the box and watches as the light shines off of the expensive rock. He grabs the ring out of the box and begins twisting it between his fingers while downing the whole shot.

The loud banging at Madison's door wakes her up. She looks besides her to see Cairo and Layla still sleep. She rises out of bed and looks at the alarm clock to see the time. 3:00 Three in the morning somebody is banging on her door. She pulls Vito's shirt down a little that stops exactly at the bottom of her behind. The knocks kept getting louder causing her to practically run down the stairs to stop the person from waking the kids up. She gets to the door and unlocks it before even looking out the window.

"Victor, what are you doing? It's three in the morning the kids are sleeping." She whisper yells

"MADISON I-I JUST-

"Shhh!The neighbors and the kids are sleeping."

She pulls his arm and watches as he stumbles inside of the house.

"Victor the babies."she murmurs

"Oh oh oh I'm sorry."

He grips the wall trying to hold himself up.

"I know you didn't drive all the way here."

"Nah I took a cab. Hon-Hon- what was I about to say again? Oh yeah I think I gave the cab man like five hundred dollars." He slurs

"Go on the couch and lay down."

She grips under his arm and helps him to lay on the couch.

"Ivyyyyy oh Ivy I love you so much girl."

"How much did you drink?" She questions looking at him in amazement.

Victor is one who can hold his liquor. So for him to be actually drunk shows he has been drinking heavy.

"I only drank a little...heyyy is that my shirt?" He asks pointing at the all white shirt that she has on

"Yes it is."

She drops down to her knees and begins unlacing his shoelace before taking his sneakers off his feet.

"Look at my princess. Baby you treat me like such a king."

He tilts his head back and stays put for a while.

"It's so hot in here Ivy" he whines trying to pull his shirt off

Madison grumbles while standing up. She leans over him and helps pull the t-shirt off of him. After getting the shirt from around his neck Vito plants his hand on her stomach.

"Let's have another baby, Thisssss times we try for twins."

Madison kisses her teeth and backs away from him.

"Good night Victor."

"Wait baby can I -

"Go to bed Victor."

She heads up the stairs to her room and walks over to the opposite side of the bed. She picks Layla up and walks next door to lay her in her own bed. She plants a kiss on her forehead before She begins picking up some toys she has on the floor.She packs them away in her toy chest and then heads back into her room. She scoops Cairo up and plants him in his cot. She also lays a kiss on his forehead staring at him sleeping.

"Your daddy is a mess."

She shakes her head and crawls into her bed. Her lead lays against the pillow but sleep wouldn't consume her the way she wanted. Moments later she could hear footsteps walking up the stairs. She rolls her eyes in hope of him not waking the babies.

"Psttt Ivy you up?" He whispers

"What Victor? Cairo is asleep."

"Ivy I can't sleep alone."

Madison shakes her head before murmuring to herself.

"I can't believe I'm doing this. Victor get in the bed." .

"You you sure?" He hiccups

" want me to change my mind?"

Vito drops to the floor and begins crawling over to the bed.

"What the hell are you doing?"

He crawls on the bed and plops himself beside her. She could smell the alcohol and his cologne on him.

"Take those dirty pants off." She whispers practically screaming

"I'm sorry Ivy. Can you help me?"

She sits up and scoots over so she could help him. She unbuckles his button and begins sliding his pants down his waist.

"Now go to sleep" she mumbles

She throws his pants somewhere and slides back in her position to lay down. She turns her back facing the clock to get a glance at the time.4:00. An hour, it took her an hour to get back in bed. Vito hands begin getting very fidgety. His hand glides up her thigh making her jump.

"Victor stop touching me"

Madison rolls her eyes and scoots more over to the edge of the bed.

"Ivy, why are you so far away?" He questions raspily

"Because you don't know how to keep your hands to yourself."

Vito moves more over to her side and grips her body from around her waist.

"I love you so much Ivy."

Madison shakes her head before responding.

"Love you too Victor."

She shuts her eyes finally feeling sleep take over. Just as she's about to fall in slumber she feels his fingers moving her underwear to the side before feeling the feeling of penetration.

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